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Shred Of Doubt 🌺 Dukexiety

TW: Suicidal Thoughts/Actions, Crying, Panic Attacks, Talk of  Suicide, Cursing, Food Mention, Eating/Mention of Lack of Eating, Sympathetic Remus, Sympathetic Janus , Car/Driving

im v sad so ive been writing this for like a month :)

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Virgil blinked hazily at his ceiling, his chest cold despite the hundred degree weather outside. Tears poured down his face and his hands shivered with the need to move up. God, he was just so tired.

He'd been planning for so long how to properly give up. Pre-typed letters and messages in his notes, only needing a quick copy and paste before he would turn off his phone and... well that's the thing, he couldn't decide what to do next. He had so many things that would work. A knife, some bleach, medications, a toaster- though that idea just made him laugh. He could do anything, anytime.

It made him curious. Would anyone notice if he were gone? So he tested that theory. It was a hard no- well unless they wanted something, then whoever messaged him would keep persisting. Would anyone care if he stopped caring? He tested that too. Another no. Would anyone even give a shit if he died? ...

He hadn't tested that one.

It scared Virgil. Would anyone care if he died? Most signs pointed to no, but there was always that shred of doubt that followed him. That shred of doubt being his laptop. Speaking of...

Ding!

Virgil sighed a bit and sat up, swinging his legs over his bed and reaching over to pull his laptop onto his lap. He typed in his password and yawned quietly, clicking into discord, smiling slightly at the familiar profile picture of Danny Devito.

TrashMan

yo are you awake

JDelightful

yeah

TrashMan

you good man

you sound kinda down

JDelightful

bro

how the fuck did you get that vibe from that

i mean you're not wrong

but h o w

TrashMan

im just that good ;)

but really are you okay

you wanna talk

JDelightful

yeah i uh

yeah

meet me in the server

TrashMan

k

Virgil clicked into their server and went to a channel, putting on his headphones and unmuting his mic while waiting for Remus to join. The little chime of a new user joining made him take a sharp breath.