Loving You Again (GirlXGirl) (On Hold)

Book 1 - Chapter 9

Book 1 - Chapter 9
Skylar's POV

After my talk with Tanya on Thursday I spent all of that night as well as Friday thinking about everything she had said. I also spent the weekend thinking about it as well as researching it. Come Monday, I'm still really fucking confused about what I might be.

I have no idea if I'm gay, straight, bi, or whatever else it's possible to even be. But after all of that thinking and agonizing over it, there is one thing I'm absolutely sure about and that is that I like Hayley.

I'm attracted to Hayley emotionally as well as sexually. I don't know if it's just her or if I can feel this way about other girls too. It honestly confuses me a lot more about my sexuality, but she isn't something that I'm confused about anymore.

After figuring at least this much out, I really wanted to talk to Hayley. I spent the entire morning working up the courage to do so and I think I finally found it.

As soon as the lunch bell rang I made my way out to the courtyard. I looked around and saw Tanya eating with a couple other people but I didn't see Hayley. If she isn't here then there's really only two other places she could be.

I head to the first place I think she might be. I walk around the soccer field trying to see if I can spot her. I'm about to turn back around when I see her auburn hair lightly blowing in the wind from behind one of the trees.

I take a deep breath before walking over to her. As I approach her I see her sitting there with a half eaten granola bar hanging out of her mouth as she sketches in her notebook. I silently laugh at the image in front of me, it's just so her. I'm already really close to her and yet she doesn't seem to see me. She is lost in her own little world.

I look at her for a few more seconds with a small smile before I take one final deep breath and walk the rest of the way up to her.

"So, I've decided that I'm into you," I just say once I'm standing in front of her.

I hear her choke a little in surprise as she reaches up and takes the granola bar out of her mouth before looking up at me.

"I'm sorry, what? You're into me?" she asks with a raised brow as she looks up at me.

"Yes," I say with a slight shrug of my shoulders. "I don't know if I'm gay, bi, straight, or whatever. But what I do know is that I'm attracted to you," I say and she rolls her eyes.

"I told you I don't want to be your gay experiment," she says exhaustedly and I shake my head.

"You're not," I reassure her. "I have thought about it a lot. I'm still not entirely sure what I am, I think there's a fair chance I could be bi, but I can't say for sure. Whether or not I am though doesn't change the fact that I'm attracted to you," I say confidently. "I really enjoyed kissing you the other night, I enjoyed it a lot. I can even see things going further between us. I remembered what you said that first night you stayed over, the joke you made about how you aren't gay for me. Well it made me think, I might not be gay, but I'm definitely gay for you," I say and she just starts laughing.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to laugh," she apologizes as she tries to stop. "It's just... you are really serious right now, aren't you?" she asks curiously and I nod my head.

"Yes, completely. I'm not saying I want to be your girlfriend or even that I have strong feelings for you, but I am without a doubt attracted to you. And I know you are attracted to me as well. I'm not asking you out or anything, but I would really like if we could at least try to be friends and maybe see where things go, if they ever go anywhere," I say and she frowns.