Loving You Again (GirlXGirl) (On Hold)

Book 1 - Chapter 15

Book 1 - Chapter 15
Skylar's POV

I wait for Hayley to say that I can touch her or anything but she still seems shocked. After a few seconds of seeming like she won't ever snap out of it, she finally shakes her head.

"No," she says and I look at her in confusion.

"No? You just said you wanted me to," I say and she frowns.

"I want you to because you want to, Sky. Not because I made you feel pressured into it," she says before sighing again. "Look, I'm fine, really. But can you please just move out of the way so I can take a shower?" she asks as she tries to move around me but once again I won't let her.

I reach up and take the side of her face into the palm of my hand before leaning in and kissing her. I use my free hand to grab her hip and pull her closer into me. I run my tongue along her bottom lip and she moans out but pulls away before letting me taste her.

"Sky, this really isn't helping me," she breathes out and I nod my head a little.

"Then how about this?" I ask as I trail my hand from her hip and up into her shirt. I move my hand up her stomach and to her chest and cup her breast. "Does that feel good?" I ask and she moans out and she closes her eyes.

"Yes," she says, her voice filled with lust.

I lean back into her and bring my lips onto hers. I play with her breast as I kiss her deeply, causing a low lustful moan to push past her lips. I kiss her for a few seconds more before slowly pulling away and removing my hand from her shirt. I immediately hear a small whimper escape her lips at the sudden loss.

"While watching you, I wanted to touch you so badly. So badly that it hurt," I admit. "I want to touch you, baby. I really do, it's just I'm not sure if I'm ready to be touched myself... nor am I sure if I'm ready for, you know, oral sex," I say a little nervously and she laughs lightly as she smiles at me.

"You don't have to go down on me if you don't want to," she says reassuringly. "I mean, I hope someday that you will, but I never want to force you into something you are uncomfortable with," she says and I smile at her.

This is what I love about her. The fact that I know she means it. She really would never force me to. It's definitely something I want to try but I'm not ready yet. Just the thought of touching her alone is already overwhelming me. So thinking about this is just too much.

"I appreciate that," I say with a soft smile as I move in closer to her. "So can I touch you?" I ask and she just silently stares at me for a second.

"I don't know..." she says hesitantly.

"Do you no longer want me to?" I ask disappointedly and she quickly shakes her head.

"Of course I want you to. I really fucking want you to, trust me," she says really seriously, causing me to laugh a little. "It's just... I don't know if I'm strong enough to resist the urge to touch you back if you do," she says and I nod my head.

I thought this could be the case. I do think she is strong enough to resist the urge but it does seem a little unfair to ask her to. If she wants to touch me half as badly as I want to touch her then I know her urges must be really strong and how hard it is to try and suppress them. I don't want her to have to suppress them completely. I might not be ready to let her go all the way with me, but I do want her to at least be able to have a little more.