Loving You Again (GirlXGirl) (On Hold)

Book 1 - Chapter 16

Book 1 - Chapter 16
Hayley's POV

It's been about a month since Skylar and I went on our trip to San Francisco and I still can't get over everything that happened that night. When she walked in on me touching myself I was so scared that she would think I was gross or perverted for doing it, or at the very least be uncomfortable. Particularly because she was most likely the person I was thinking about while doing it, which she was. But she wasn't any of those things, it actually turned her on.

The last thing I would have ever expected from her was her asking to watch me, that seriously threw me. I thought letting her watch would be incredibly awkward. Having her look at me while I was completely exposed and doing something so intimate as that, I honestly didn't think I could do it. She seemed really eager though so I agreed for her. I was pretty nervous at first but I found myself getting really excited and turned on. Watching her watch me so intently and seeing her get so clearly turned on by what she was seeing made me even hotter... and then she exposed herself to me and I nearly lost it.

After I came, I don't know what I was expecting to happen but when she just said 'thank you' and walked away I was really disappointed and frustrated. I might have came but it brought me almost no relief, if anything I had only gotten more turned on. Of course I wanted more but I didn't want to push her or pressure her, so as usual I was ready to resign myself to my fate.

Skylar, however, never ceases to surprise me, when she agreed to touch me in addition to letting me have even more of her, I was losing my mind. It was amazing. It felt amazing to be able to be more intimate with her and it felt really amazing to have her be more intimate with me. Literally the second she touched me I had a small orgasm that seemed to go unnoticed by her and it didn't take her very long at all to get me to another one.

My body's reaction to her was not at all surprising to me. It has always reacted so strongly to her. Every time she even looks at me or I look at her, I feel my heart race a little. It took me a little bit to figure out that what I was feeling was love. She was all that I could think about and I always wanted to be with her or near her. Seeing her happy makes me happy, when she laughs I laugh, when she cries I cry. I want to care for her and make her as happy as she makes me... if that's not love then I really have no idea what is.

I hadn't planned on telling her so soon. I thought a few times that maybe she felt the same way but I wasn't sure and I didn't want to say it so early, but after what happened that night I just had to say it. I couldn't suppress the urge anymore, I needed her to know how I felt even if she didn't feel the same way, but she did. She said she loved me too and I felt like my heart was going to burst.

This last month I have been happier than I probably ever have been in my life. I have a beautiful girlfriend whom I love and who loves me back. Our relationship is stronger than ever and has also been getting more physical. We still haven't moved past the boundaries we set that night in San Francisco though.

I want to say I'm okay with how things are because Skylar has been taking such good care of me sexually. I should be happy that my needs are being met, but they aren't, not really. They can't be fully met because I also feel a need to take care of Skylar and I know she has those needs too, but she says she still isn't ready. I'm trying my best to not push her or pressure her in any way but I feel bad for not being able to do more for her. For now I have accepted that this is just how things are. She can touch me but I can't touch her... but hopefully I will get to soon.

I'm lying with my naked body on top of Skylar's as she works her fingers between my legs. It's late and we are in her bedroom while her dad is asleep across the hall so I'm trying to be as quiet as possible, but she makes it incredibly hard for me to stay quiet.