Loving You Again (GirlXGirl) (On Hold)

Book 1 - Chapter 19

Chapter 19
Hayley's POV

I was beyond upset with Skylar last week for telling her dad about my father. I can't even describe in words how mad I was. I felt absolutely betrayed. Not telling her dad about mine is probably the only thing I have ever really asked her to do. She promised she wouldn't but then she did. In that moment, I was angry, terrified, and heart broken.

I was so upset and I wanted to hate Skylar for doing that, and a part of me probably did a little, but I knew she was only trying to help me. Her intentions were good and I can't hate her for loving me and wanting to keep me safe. She was doing what she thought was right and so while I felt betrayed, I couldn't hate her for doing it, especially not after she apologized.

Honestly, when I think back on it, I wasn't as scared of the possibility of being put in the foster care system as I was scared of losing her. I knew if I ever was really at risk of being put into the system I would just run away and at one point in time that wouldn't have made much of a difference to me. Running away and living out of my car wouldn't have been so bad, but then Skylar came into my life.

I never planned to fall in love with her the way I have, but I did. I fell deeply in love and I never want to lose her, that's why I was so terrified when she told her dad. I knew if he reported my father I would have to run and that would mean losing Skylar. I know she said she would run with me but I could never ask her to do that. She has a good life and an amazing dad who would have been heartbroken if she were to runaway. I don't want to lose her but I also don't want to force her to give up her home and her family for me.

Thankfully though things worked out. Her dad agreed to let me stay and to not report my father. It's only been about a week but so far things are really working out. I always felt at home at Skylar's but that is more true than ever before. Once everything was finally out on the table and her dad knew about everything including her and I being together, it was freeing in a way. There was no longer any reason to hide, no more secrets or lies.

Living with Skylar and her dad has been so nice. I don't know if it's because Skylar and I are dating or if it's because he feels sorry for me, but Nathan has been treating me more like a member of their family than ever before. I like to think the reason is because I'm with his daughter and not pity but I have decided that I don't care, I'm happy. They have fully welcomed me into their home and I have never felt so loved and safe before in my life. Not once.

While Nathan has been so amazing about all this, I do still feel slightly awkward being with Skylar and acting like a couple around him. I'm just never really sure how to act because I don't want to make him uncomfortable or anything if I were to accidentally get too intimate with her. She tried to kiss me once while he was in the room, nothing major, just like a light peck on the lips and I panicked and turned my head so she got my cheek instead.

Skylar is kind of annoyed by it and says I just need to relax but it's hard for me to do that when the man knows I've been having sex with her. Which is a whole other thing. Ever since our first time she has been constantly wanting to have sex. It was a little awkward at first doing it when we knew her father was home but I don't have the ability to refuse her. He has never said anything about it since he first found out about us but he has to know we have been doing it. The man isn't stupid and that's why whenever Skylar starts to get too intimate with me when he is in the same room, I start to freak out a little. He has been so accepting of us and has truly made me feel so welcomed that I don't want to make him the slightest bit uncomfortable seeing me touch Skylar in any way that's even the slightest bit intimate.

Skylar walks back into the living room and frowns at me and her dad. "I said you didn't have to pause the movie while I went to the bathroom," she says as she sits back down next to me on the couch.