Loving You Again (GirlXGirl) (On Hold)

Book 2 - Chapter 6

Book 2 - Chapter 6
Skylar's POV

After work, Tanya and a couple of other people we work with asked me if I wanted to go out for some Friday night drinks and I readily agreed. With the week I have had, I could definitely use a few drinks.

All week long I have been thinking about my talk with Hayley. I had already been so confused about my sexuality, but talking to her made me even more so.

I went into that conversation with her thinking I was just confused about Tanya, but it seems I'm a little confused about her too. When I told her that I had been curious about what it would be like to kiss other women and she asked me if I had someone particular in mind, I lied. I did have someone in mind, her.

She is the only other lesbian I know, so I thought that might be why I was thinking about her in particular. Regardless, I still wondered about it and whether or not I would enjoy kissing and being with her just as much as I did Tanya, or perhaps enjoy it even more. I think at the very least kissing someone else could be a great way to sort out my feelings, but obviously I can't kiss her because she is married... She is happily married and trying to have a child with her beautiful wife. So obviously I'm insane for thinking about it at all.

I think that the amount of time  I have spent fixating on the thought of kissing her over the week, pretty much tells me all I need to know about my sexuality. I think the fact that I have also been wondering what it would be like to touch and be touched by her says even more. If I was completely straight, I really don't think I would be this curious.

There's a difference between just wondering what something is like and actually thinking about doing it... whatever I might be, it's obvious I'm not as straight as I thought I was.

I look at Tanya sitting next to me in the booth at the bar. When I say look, I mean I really take my time and look at her closely. I look at her face, her lips and the way she smiles as she laughs at something someone else at the table said. My eyes drift down and look at her slightly unbuttoned blouse that exposes just a bit of her cleavage... it's suddenly as though I'm really looking at her for the first time.

I reach out and put my hand on her thigh to grab her attention and she turns her head to look at me. I lean closer to her so I can whisper to her without being overheard.

"Do you want to get out of here?" I ask and she pulls back from me a little and looks at me with a raised brow.

"We barely just got here," she says and I nod.

"I was thinking that maybe we could go back to my place and maybe drink there. You know, alone," I say and she silently looks at me for a second.

"Seriously?" she asks and I nod my head again. She continues to look at me for another second before smiling slightly.

I watch as she quickly turns around and tells everyone at the table that something came up. She says she has to leave and that I'm going to drive her home. Everyone at the table seems rather disappointed and begs us to stay for at least one more round but we apologize and say we really need to go.

It wasn't easy but we finally managed to escape and get to my car. I offered to drive as I barely touched my one beer while Tanya drank enough to make her a little buzzed. As we were pulling out, Tanya said that we should go to her place as it's closer to the bar we were just at and I saw no reason to argue. 

The majority of the drive to her apartment is quiet except for her briefly giving me directions on what streets to take because I have only ever been to her place once or twice and never came this way before. We finally start heading down some streets I recognize and I realize that we are almost to her place. With each passing second my heart seems to beat a little faster in my chest.