Bound By Blood

Chapter 43

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Bound By Blood

Chapter 43

Samantha

I watched as my husband walked away from me, I think I'm drunk I know I am, good I just want to forget about everything. I don't think I'm going to be able to make it home, I collapsed onto the curb I was laying there wondering if Daryl will come looking for me. I started to fall asleep. I felt someone touching me. I look at who was touching me through half-closed eyes it was Negan.

"Oh hi."

"What are you doing down there? Man, I have seen stray dogs in better shape than you, honey."

"Well, thanks."

"Come on Mrs. D, my Daryl will be worried about you."

"I'm okay. I highly doubt he is worried about me."

"Why would you say that? I know him and I aren't friends but even I can see he loves you."

"I know he does but how am I just supposed to live as nothing happened. I thought I was okay but that house is where I nearly died. I just want to move on but how can I?"

"You just do. Did you expect it to be easy? It isn't it's a day at a time. It's talking to someone, it's not getting drunk. I'm taking it you haven't spoken to Daryl?"

"No he will never understand, he hasn't been nearly killed."

"Not a lot of people have been but I bet he wants to help you. You should let him. How about I take you home."

"Okay." I gave Negan my hand and he helped me up I was unsteady on my feet, we made our way slowly to my home and he helped me up to my front steps. "Thank you for bringing me home."

"Just being a gentleman." I quietly opened the door the house was silent and dark, I was shocked when a light went on.

"I was wondering if you were going to come home."

"Nowhere else to go. Not that you care if you did you wouldn't have left me alone, anything could have happened to me."

"Yeah, I saw you, despite everything I knew you'd be okay. So are you gonna tell me what's wrong with you? Or just keep getting drunk because if you do this again I don't know if I want you around my children, they deserve better than an alcoholic for a mother. I won't let my kids have my childhood."

"You'll never understand Daryl you can't."

"I mightn't understand but if you tell me it might help you and help us."

"I thought I was okay to come home but obviously I'm not. I close my eyes and I see that woman stabbing me or holding onto Shawna. I nearly got my daughter killed. I nearly died in that room how exactly am I supposed to go into that room and not think about it." I sat on the couch opposite my husband I've never felt more alone than I do now.

"You didn't do anything wrong babe. Lydia said that bitch had our daughter by the throat if I'd seen that I'd have killed her myself."

"I couldn't fight her I didn't know how. I thought I was going to die, then she'd kill my babies."

"None of which is your fault. You did the best you could, you had no weapons and you tried fighting her, I think it was amazing. I'm proud of my wife."

"You're proud of me? I wish I could be proud of what I did."

"It's okay not to be proud too, you didn't kill her and if you had it's self-defense. So you finished your pity party?"

"I wasn't having a pity party asshole. I was having a moment when I felt useless, I mean I already am I can't hold both my babies or my eldest, I've failed you as a wife and as a woman, I'm just not that good anymore. Also as a person what am I supposed to do. I've done the one thing I was trained for now what?"