Sinner II Vmin

Unconditionally

Proverbs 17:17  "A friend loves at all times." ... I will love you unconditionally baby bunny.

        "There is this boy and he came over my house last night. His name is Kim Taehyung. Apparently my mom used to be friends with his mom. Now they will be coming to our church every Sunday and they want me and him to become friends." I ramble to my best friend while he eats his food.  "Ok, what's wrong with that?" He asks, with his mouth full.  "First of all stop talking with your mouth full, it's impolite. Secondly, he is very straightforward and bold which kind of intimidates me." I explain, sipping my water.  "I mean, as long as he isn't a dick or like mean towards you I think you'll be fine." Jungkook tells me, shrugging his shoulders.  "I guess you're right. He kinda makes me feel uncomfortable, but like not in a bad way. I can't really explain it." I express, looking up in thought.   "Maybe you have a crush on him?" The boy in front of me says nonchalantly.  With wide eyes, I smack the boy in the head.  "What was that for?" He whines, rubbing the back of his head.  "Don't say that out loud, what if someone heard you? Do you want me to die? And no I don't have a crush on him, I'm not gay." I argue defensively.   "I'm sorry damn. And you make being gay sound like a  bad, when it isn't." Jungkook tells me with a sad look.  Seeing the look makes me feel guilty so I apologized softly. I should've known to not speak so harshly, especially since he came out to me last year. 

     During 10th grade year~   

       Something has been up with Jungkook and it's making me worried. He is barely talking and goofing around like he usually does. I could tell something is wrong but whenever I mention it, he brushes me off. It's really bothering me but the boy never directly answers my questions which is really frustrating. Quite honestly, it makes me feel sad because we are best friends. With that in mind, we should be able to tell each other things honestly and without judgement. So it makes me upset when my supposed best friend is not telling me something. During lunch, we sat across from each other like usual. The only thing that was different was the energy. We both were not our normal joyous selves and it showed in the auras we exuded. Jungkook had his head hung low, not even taking a bite of his food. That was an odd sight, seeing as Jungkook has a huge appetite and usually never passes up the opportunity to eat. I shoved food in my mouth with annoyance. It annoyed me that he still wasn't talking and it blew me over the edge. However, before I could even speak about my frustration he beat me to it.  "Jiminie, I'm sorry." The boy apologizes barely above a whisper.  "Ok." I say, still not satisfied.  "I'm sorry I've been shutting you out recently, but I've just had allot of things on my mind. During the past few days I realized something that scared me. It is something that can get me harassed, bullied, or worse...killed. Especially in the environment we are in now. Honestly I didn't want to tell you at first. But I came to a conclusion that since you are my best friend and I trust you most, I should tell you. Before I say it, I know you may not believe me or you may want to unfriend me but I don't care. I just need the truth to come out.  I-I'm gay."  The younger boy whispered the last part.  My head went blank, hearing those two words. My best friend is gay? I wanted to hate him, I wanted to scream and tell him how disgusting he is but I just can't. Deep down I knew that I was like him however, I would never admit it. Not even to him, my own best friend who I have trusted and loved for years. It's just my father has ingrained in me that liking  a boy romantically is punishable of death which frightened me. I look up to see the younger's doe eyes watching me expectantly. Seeing the fear and sadness swimming in his beautiful brown irises made me feel guilty. Breaking out into a smile, I grab the scared boy's hand rubbing it gently.  "It's ok Jungkookie. I'll accept you unconditionally."  Hearing my words, the boy grins widely whispering a small thank you.  "No problem, thank you for telling me. Now remember we must never keep secrets like this from each other ok." I remind the other boy and he nods in agreement. Even though I say this, I can feel the guilt from my hypocrisy eating away at me on the inside. Nevertheless, I continue to smile in his face like nothing is wrong.

        A.N~ I'm back with this story loves. A little Jikook moment, hope you all love it. xoxo