close your eyes and feel me

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Hope you're all doing well,that you're safe and so are your loved one.
Wanna start by saying thank you all for the constant support for this story, you comment, you like and it means something. We're already at 13k of views on Wattpad! YAY!

I also want to thank y'all for bearing with me and my sudden decision of taking a break from writing. I took the last few weeks as a time to educate myself on black issues in america, both the usa and canada, and i intend on keeping educating myself to become a better, more efficient ally to the black community.

I love y'all.

I hope you like this chapter :)

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Ever since his engagement to Eliza was over, Sidney was feeling incredibly relieved. The weight he was feeling all the time was now gone, his constant headache was a thing of the past. He was feeling better, happier. The snow outside in London was also melting, spring was finally here. Life was back. Life was here.

He wasn't with Charlotte, and had not seen her for almost a month now, but he still felt the happiest he had felt in months.

He was no longer engaged to someone he didn't loved. He was no longer responsible of his brother's financial crisis and he was finally, finally, able to breathe.

No endless nights drinking himself to sleep, no more was he writing unfinished letters that he never sent anyway. He would not have to sneak around to see the woman he loved, he wouldn't have to make her his mistress - the thought of it had crossed his mind- and he would finally, for the very first time ever, be able to do exactly what he want. Mary Charlotte Heywood. Wake up, every morning, next to his wife.

It had been a month now, and it was now time.

As for charlotte, she was doing ok. She had stopped crying herself to sleep, and her eyes were regaining their sparkles, days after days.
She had not seen Sidney since the last time, nor had she seen or talked to Eliza Campion. No, Charlotte didn't go out much in the past few weeks, but she was ok with it. She spent most of her time reading, something she has not done in a while, and hang out with either Susan or Esther. Charlotte had grown to appreciate Esther a lot in the last few weeks, and what seemed to be totally impossible before had happened: the two women were now friends.

It was her who broke the news to Charlotte.

Esther arrived in the tea room breathless, almost running to Charlotte. Her cheeks were red and her hair were all over her face.

« My, Esther, are you alright? » asked Charlotte, both curious and worried.

Esther was panting, unable to say something for a few seconds, which only made charlotte wonder more.

« He...They... » she tried to say between heavy breaths, « they're not...Sidney... »

« What are you saying? » said charlotte, jumping suddenly from her seat.

Her hand on her chest, Esther slowly started to calm down, finally. After a short pause, she looked up to Charlotte and said :

« Sidney's engagement has been off for a month. »

Suddenly, Charlotte's world stopped, her heart skipped a beat and before realizing it, she already was outside the door. Running in the streets of London, similar to how Esther had run a moment before, charlotte was running to Sidney, unaware as to why his engagement was over. Unaware why he had not yet told her about it. But she didn't care, she didn't take any moment to think about it.

The man she loved was not engaged to another woman anymore, and she didn't need any reasons or explanations. All she needed, was to see Sidney face to face. To look into his eyes and see if he still want her the same way she still wanted him.