close your eyes and feel me

24

Hello! It's been a while!
Ive been meaning to write this chapter for a moment now, but i barely can find any motivation to write anything at all... it happens.
But ive worked throught it and here it is!!! I hope you like it and forgive me beforehand because i didnt check any of the grammar and spelling beyond what my computer see.

Take care :)

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« He can't be dead. » Said Charlotte, biting her nail, the letter in her other hand. « He cannot be. » she said again.

Susan was sitting on the sofa near her, completely shocked. Esther, on the other hand, was walking all over the room, worried.

« Charlotte, my dear... » tried to say Susan, but she cut her off immediately.

« No! » she snapped, tears in her eyes. « He's not dead, I know it, Susan, I know it. »

« how could you know that, Charlotte, dear? » Susan did not wanted to be the one reasonable, down to earth... but who else would? Esther was married to his best friend, and Charlotte was far too involved to see the truth.

« I know it. » she said as a tear fell down her cheek. «  if Sidney was dead, i would feel it. I would know it. » another tear, then a couple more on the floor. « How can he be gone when im still here, Susan? How? He cannot be dead. »

Susan looked at her friend, crushed. She thought of her own lover, imagined her being gone, and her heart skipped a beat. Would she know as well, would she feel it, if something came to happened to Catherine? When two people love each other, can they really feel one another, anywhere and every time ?

Esther stopped walking abruptly, her back facing her two friends.

« Esther, are you alright? » asked Susan.

It took Esther a minute before turning around, a different look on her face. She walked near the two women in silence and then finally said :

« You ought to go. » she whispered, as if the walls had ears.

« what? » exclaimed Susan.

Esther took charlotte's hand between hers. « Do tell me, my friend, do you truly know that he is alive? »

« yes » simply said Charlotte, determined.

« then you must go, go to antigua and find him. » Said Esther. « I'll arrange everything with my husband, he'll make it happen. »

Susan then stood up, done with this.

« absolutely not! Are you going insane? » she looked at them like they were crazy -maybe they were- and continued to say « You have done more to hurt your reputation than i have ever seen someone from your status do in my entire life! » she said while pointing to Charlotte. « And you! » it was to Esther she was talking now, « you! You almost lost EVERYTHING. Do you have any idea how lucky you are to have found a husband like yours? And to be living like you do now? How lucky? »

The two were quite surprised and shocked by Susan's speech. They watched her sit down again, closing her eyes.

« women, in our society, cannot go around and make mistakes. » said Susan.

Tears in her eyes, she get up and quickly leaves the room, leaving Esther and Charlotte to themselves. Guilty, Charlotte turn to Esther. She already hates herself for saying this, but she knows she has too. She know its the only thing left to do, she know she won't be able to sleep at night otherwise.

« Esther, I need you to send me to Antigua. »

With a convicted look, her friend smiled at her, determined. It has been a long time since Charlotte had felt so sure about something. There were no doubts in her mind that the right to do for her was to go to him.