Enervating Beauty (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Chapter 23 - Redemption

"What the hell? Kylo, what are you doing here?"

He removed himself from the shadows and walked into the light. He was wearing a worn black sweater and form fitting black pants.

He looked so different.

So... at ease. I had never seen him like this before. I couldn't find a trace of anger in his aura, everything about him seemed softer. Like the prior energy of Kylo I had gotten used to was just gone.

     I wanted to still be angry at him, furious for leaving me so heartbroken. But I was overjoyed seeing him again.

"I'm done," he said calmly.

"What are you talking about?" As surprised as I was at his sudden appearance, I was grappling with this new version of him even more. And what the hell he was even talking about. I grabbed his rough hand in mine and pulled him over to my bed to talk. He obliged and followed me with no complaints. The silence only lasted for a minute before he spoke up.

"I left the First Order. I'm done with it, all of it."

He stared into my eyes so intensely, like his soul was fully exposed.

      Oh, that face. I had missed it so much. I had missed the way he smelled, his scars, his wispy hairs that curved around his forehead. All of it, all of him.

"What? No, you can't leave and be done just like that. You told me yourself how long you've worked to get to this position, all the sacrifices you've made. I don't understand."

"It didn't mean anything if I couldn't have you," he responded quickly.

    I could not fathom him leaving because of us, or specifically me. His hand left mine and gently pulled my loose hair back over my shoulders before holding my face.

He stared at me for a long time. And I stared back. Grappling with the man I loved having returned, it was just an unexplainable feeling. He kissed my nose so carefully, terrified to make a wrong move but I leaned into his touch.

I was so overwhelmed by what he was telling me. So many years of his life has been dedicated to one thing and one thing only, Snoke and his regime. And the fact that he was leaving it because of me... I was just speechless.

"Kylo, you don't have to do this. I don't want you to give up everything you've worked for because of me. It's not worth it," I whispered as our foreheads touched and I bathed in his presence. His hands gripped the back of my neck as my eyes came up again to meet his that were spilling with emotion.

"I love you," he cried.

I felt my own tears starting to fall as those three words finally came out.

"So much. There is nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for you," he finished before wrapping me tightly in his arms.

I curled my hand into the bottom of his sweater as his soft skin met mine. I cried into his shoulder as the words I had dreamt of him saying for so many months were now a reality. I finally lifted my head up to look at him.

"I'm sorry it took me so long to realize, and I'm sorry I was such a dick to you, and that I left you and gave up on us—"

"Stop, it doesn't matter now. You're here and you came back." He melted into me at those words. "I love you and will never stop loving you," I sobbed.

Our lips collided as the salty tears rushed down my face and mixed into our fiery, passionate kiss. One that my lips had desperately ached for and one that filled my heart with so much joy. Nothing, and I truly mean nothing, could beat this feeling. Our lips broke apart as I wrapped my arms around him tight.