Enervating Beauty (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Chapter 26- Goodbye

"Woah woah, what happened?" Kylo asked as I stormed back into my room. The copious number of tears had slid down past my neck now, leaving a shiny hue in its path.

But they were rage filled tears. I was angry.

No, I was fucking furious that I had to give up the one thing I had worked so hard for and cared so much about. I dedicated the latter part of my life to this, this fucking joke. How could I have ever been so stupid to think that they believed in me or could ever truly accept a woman in this position? All the wasted time, all the wasted energy, all the days everyone pretended like I was doing such an amazing job and actually making a difference.

It was all bullshit.

"I quit. I fucking quit! I'm done, I don't care anymore. I don't give a fuck what happens to this stupid fucking planet," I responded, fists clenched and tight.

"What? Stop, please just calm down for a second," he said dumbfounded, urging me to slow my pace as I quickly started ripping through the items in my room to find the few belongings I wanted. Ever since he had seen me again, all he knew was my absolute devotion to this planet. I poured my soul into this place and now I wanted to burn it to the ground.

I disregarded what he said and continued to anxiously pull my fingers through my hair. My mind began to race thinking about what to do next, where to go, how I would ever cope with this. Kylo saw the franticness of my actions and could tell this was something serious.

He met me on the other side of the room, saying nothing but wrapping me in his warmth. Arms tight and secure around my shaking, scared body. He held me for a long time as I soaked in his comforting scent and felt the safety of him wash over me. When he finally released me, I saw how my actions were affecting him. He was worried. Genuinely, truly fucking concerned that I had absolutely lost it. He'd never seen me like this before.

"Talk to me, please. Just let it out," he pleaded with me.

His hand caressed my cheek and across my jaw, thumb resting on my quivering lip. I tried to catch some deep breaths so I could calm myself and tell him what the fuck just happened.

"Being queen, the whole thing. I just quit. I'm done. The way they treat me, the complete lack of respect they have. I can't live in this type of environment anymore, I'm going to go fucking mad."

He gulped apprehensively, trying to find the right words to not continue upsetting me.

"I understand that, but this is your entire life-"

"Kylo, you're my life now," I said, bringing my hands to meet his own.

That glimmer in his eyes, the look of absolute astonishment he still held that someone could truly love him that much. It got me every time.

What a peculiarity in life to have someone's soul mean that much to your own existence.

"Look, you did this for me didn't you? What options would I be left with if I stayed? I'd be married to that prick and you and I could... never be together," I said sheepishly.

"I know that, and I know I would never fit in here. I would have to sit through your fucking wedding and watch you from afar for the rest of your reign but that doesn't matter. I love you and no one else in this world matters to me but you. I would be willing to do that if it meant you were happy," he proclaimed, passion straining his voice.

"I could never be happy like that! Without you, nothing makes sense. I would never for a second want you to waste your life like that for me to begin with, but there is nothing stopping us now. We can go wherever, do whatever, be nonexistent if that's what you want. Our options are limitless," I answered.