Enervating Beauty (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Chapter 16- All The Stars

I felt the heaviest weight on my chest as I had to finally come to terms with my life.

He was not coming back.

It had been over a month since our time spent together on his ship, and since I last saw him. Now in just one week, I would be crowned Queen of Chandrila.

Not only had the chaos of the First Order left an impact on our planet, but my position in the Senate as well. It was now in jeopardy as I had missed the past few meetings thanks to the First Order's reign. I was somewhat regretful that I was unable to attend the recent meetings but there was also a part of me that was secretly glad. The Senate was one thing I had entered because I had to, not because I wanted to.

Truthfully, I would have been happy to give my position to another one of our great politicians in the city. I had done my best to learn from our wonderful teachers, but this universe was vast and not the easiest to learn.

I honestly had lost my desire to do many things regarding my career. But being in the senate went hand and hand with my new role to help me learn how to be the best leader, and I was a pretty pawn that could be showed off to the other planets. So I had endured as much as I could.

The advisors had already informed me that my position would be replaced in due time with my crowning anyhow. I would be of too great an importance to our planet to continue attending these risky meetings with the current state of things. And cowardly, I was more than ready to no longer have to attend.

There was a silver lining, however. Since Kylo and the rest of the leaders left, eventually the rest of the First Order all filed out behind them.

We were free! In the aftermath of the First Order's departure, our people were at peace, and excited for the coronation.

I loved my people and was ecstatic for them to feel safe again, but my heart was still so heavy. I was haunted by all the memories we had made right up to his departure. I still could barely think of him without getting choked up. It had been so long now since I had last been held by him, or even just caught a glimpse of his face beyond the mask.

When he left, he was so sure of us, of what he wanted out of our relationship. And I knew that he meant it, I could feel the passion radiating from his body. That's why I had come to the conclusion that he didn't just leave on his own. Whatever happened, whatever called him away, I didn't care anymore.

I just wanted to be there for him.

All I could hope at this point was that despite whatever galaxy he was in, one day we would be under the same sky seeing the same stars again. Knowing that even then, the stars could never shine as brightly as he did.

I was trying to gather my things to leave for the day when I heard a small knock at the door.

"Your Grace? I have your data pad," Iylin's small voice said.

"Of course, come in. I was just looking for that."

Iylin's petite body entered quietly, and she closed the door behind her. She stood awkwardly near the door as she handed me the data pad.

"I mean this in the kindest way Your Grace, but I think you should sit down for this."

I was confused and followed her to the bed, nerves growing as she twisted her hands together nervously.

"What's going on?"

"Colonel Akana and Atlas—"

I interrupted her before she could continue to say his first name.