His Rose

Chapter 7: Aurora

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⚜️ Only if I could put what I feel for you into words..⚜️
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Alestia

Annoyance.

This was a feeling that I had a somewhat okayish grasp over. One I did understand. The feeling I was feeling now, however, was a bit different from the ordinary annoyance.

It was annoyance mixed with a little bit of hurt.

The annoyance from the curious questioning eyes and the hurt from the cold shoulder I was getting from the boy who claimed me as his, only to forget it within a night.

Levi was ignoring me. He talked alright. However the replies were curt. Short. And most importantly, distant.

Maybe he regretted it. Maybe he didn't mean it. Or maybe it was but a figment of my own imagination.

The increasing interest of the students in our relation begged to differ though.

It was no imagination.

I kick the pebble, that seemed to be placed conveniently at my feet solely for the purpose of venting my frustrations. The poor thing rolled away only to stop at Levi's feet.

It was lunch break, but food was the last thing in my mind. He clears his throat looking guilty enough for me to know that this wasn't just a coincidence.

He opens his mouth to speak but I cut him off.

"You regret it."

It wasn't a question. And he notibly flinches.

Panic clouds his features as he steps closer hoping to provide a reasonable explanation. He then stops and sighs.

He knows excuses won't work with me.

His hands slowly travel towards my face, however he then paused, knowing he had no right to touch me right now.

What he didn't know was I wouldn't have the heart to refuse his touch.

"Depends on what 'it' refers to."

He finally speaks.

"I don't regret telling you that I like you, I don't regret telling you about my parents and I most certainly do not regret kissing you, because God knows I want to that again right now."

There it is. That fucking blush.

"What I do regret is......being so rash. I can't explain it but you being with me means you bring targeted too. My research on Romanov has started already, Richard's been helping me with that. Once Romanov knows someone's researching on him he would find me, at that time he will know about you too. And I-I know you aren't weak but the 'what ifs' in my head won't stop and I...."

His eyes tear up as he looks me in the eye.

"I can't lose you too."

The raw emotions. The vulnerability seeps through his voice. I know he was being sincere. The fear in those eyes couldn't be faked, the haunting reality that I may leave him too.

That's what he dreads.

My hands travel to his cheeks as he leans his forehead against mine, I speak softly but firmly.

"Even if you weren't here Romanov would still target me. Because I crave his blood too, I want revenge too and I would have my revenge even if you weren't here. Remember this, this isn't your revenge alone. Not yours. Not mine."