" You should probably get some sleep with practice and everything."
"Don't do this lia"
"Goodnight Stephen." I said before closing my laptop.
I started crying as soon as I ended the call, I put my hands over my face to try and compose myself.
I picked up my laptop and threw it off my bed and picked up the positive pregnancy test off my leg and sighed...
What did we get into.
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What the hell is wrong with me how could I be so stupid to get pregnant from a guy I'm not even dating? I can't even get the courage to tell him I want to date him how am I supposed to get the courage to tell him I'm carrying his child? Not only that I can't even see him for another two and a half months.
Obviously I didn't plan this but this wasn't too surprising, when ever we get together Stephen always wants to go raw and I figured what the hell im on birth control,
Which I know see was a horrible mistake I shouldn't known better.
He's gonna leave me when he finds out, he's got too much going on in his life to be worried about a baby right now.
Why would he want a kid with me I'm just a girl he gets to fuck when he's bored there were never real feelings attached to this for him, I've always hoped maybe someday this whole thing would lead to something more but I knew it wasn't gonna happen this isn't some love story this was just hoping for some miracle when realistically it was just a little more then a booty call.
***
It's been a couple days since my last call with Stephen and things have been so empty without him, nothing interests me anymore work is even worse and I don't even want to eat. I'm currently headed home from work Stephen has called me three times in my eight hour shift which kinda has me worried but it's not like I could answer while working anyways and be knew that.
Tomorrow is my first doctors appointment for little baby bean and I wish Stephen could be here for it or heck at least know I'm pregnant but unfortunately that's not how things worked out so I'll be doing this all by myself, which is okay I guess I'll get over it but I'm a perfect world he would be here with me.
As I pulled into the driveway my phone went off with yet another call from Stephen so this time I answered before he thought I was dead.
"Hey beautiful good to see you're alive"
"Haha surprise."
"It sure is. Where have you been?"
"I was working all day"
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't know you had work today"
"It's fine."
"Okay well I have a surprise and it's totally up to you unless you say no then I'll be mad. They said if you get tested for covid and it comes back negative you can come out here in about four weeks."
"I don't know if that's a great idea..."
"Why not I want you hear. You can stay with me everybody, here is cool with it, it won't be a problem at all."
"I just think with everything going on we shouldn't risk it."
"Well too bad we are going to I'll send you more details when it gets closer."
"Stephe-"
"Okay byeeee"
I love that man but I boy I do hate him sometimes. I guess I'll be going to orlando now... with a baby inside me... that he doesn't know about...
