His thumb wiped away the tears that managed to slip from my eyes.
The pain in his eyes killed me.
It hurt me to see him like this because of me.
I did this.
I always do.
Even in the most amazing times of our lives.
I always ruin it. I always ruin us.
And I have nobody to blame but myself.
"I always wanted to make it better" he whispers as he moves my hair out of my face.
"I always tried to make you-" his voice was shaky and on the verge of breaking "make you see how much I loved you, how much I cared"
He breathed out, shaking his head as he gradually steps back from me.
"I tried, I tried so hard" I stare at him, my tears unstoppable and I roughly try to wipe them away. I shouldn't cry. I don't have the right to, but I can't help it. "Stephen I-" "no" he stops me, shaking his head.
"I tried, again and again, to prove to you what I felt for you wasn't just anything. I tried to love you. I tried to make you see what I felt. I tried to care about you. I tried to make you happy."
He breaks down, right before my eyes
"I didn't ask for this. I didn't want this for me. I didn't want to be broken like this." I croaked pulling at my hair.
"Y/n you didn't want this for you? I didn't want this for me. I fucking loved you. I loved you so much but you always did everything possible to destroy that. You, listen to me, you made it so hard to love you. You made it hard. You made it so hard to love you because each time I tried you'd find ways to push me away. To make me hate you."
He whispered the last part as if he was ashamed to say it out loud, no matter how hard it was. He turned away from me, his back facing me.
"I can't do this. I can't love you. Because loving someone shouldn't be this hard. I can't love you because you don't even love yourself. I can't do this anymore. I can't be that person anymore. I can't do it. I can't. It hurts toot much."
I wanted to be upset. I wanted to scream and tell him he was wrong. But I couldn't... because everything he said was right... I ruined us.
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Imagine waiting a week and a half for another image and it only being 400 words... I would be upset...
Who wants a 'second chances' chapter??🤷♀️
