Fallen Hope

night

We got back home.

"What what he talking about? About you guys missing a chance to play with another big band." I asked.

"Our old guitar player; Matt. We were opening up for Alien Ant Farm but he quit the band the night before. That's why we were in such a rush to get a guitar player." He explained. "Why do you look so sad? Aren't you excited?"

"Y-yeah. I am excited. Just worried." I wanted to change the subject. "Do you think I should get contacts too?" I implied.

"So really don't want to be seen with us. Do you?" He joked.

"No no. It's nothing like that." I denied.

"I'm just joking with you. Yeah, contacts would be cool."

I then drove to the store and got colored contacts. They're a vibrant snake eye red. I when I got back I put them in. I looked cool. I took them back out then looked in the mirror.

I've had this hair style for the longest time. And I'm a new person. I need a new hairstyle.

"I'm shaving half of my head!" I announced.

I took an electric razor and began to shave the right side of my hair. He ran in by the time I was almost done.

"Why are you changing yourself so much?" He asked.

"Because I left home to hopefully have a better life. I'm a new person. So why don't I have a new look?" I elaborated.

I cleaned up all the hair and threw it away. I actually did a nice job.

"Honestly, I respect that. I wouldn't have the balls to shave my head." He said.

Later on that night I got a shower and got ready for bed. But I couldn't sleep properly. I had a bad feeling about tomorrow. But I don't know why. I wish I could be as excited as everyone else. But I just... Couldn't.

I know I needed to go to sleep. But as hard as I tried, it wasn't working. I decided to call Alex.

"Hey Will, what's up?" She answered the phone.

"Can I please come see you. I need someone as the moment." I asked. I talking quietly.

"Well Eddy is home. And he'll be mad if he finds you here." She warned.

"I promise I'll be quiet." I swore.

"Okay, come in through the window though."

She then hung up. I snuck out of the house and drove over there. I went to where her window is. It was open and she was there waiting for me. I climbed in.

"What did you need?" She asked. I hugged her.

"I just needed a hug." I admitted.

"You really drove all the way here and risked getting both of us in trouble, for a damn hug?" She pointed out.

"Well Brian wasn't gonna hug me." I replied.

She hugged me back. She did not feel a lot of my hair, of course. She let go and turned on the lamp.

"What did you do to your hair?" She gasped

"I shaved half of it. I wanted a new look." It was quite obvious.

"Well it is really hot."

"I'm gonna have a completely different on-stage appearance."

"What do you mean?"

"I can't tell you." I moved towards the window. "See ya tomorrow."

I climbed back out and drove home. I snuck back inside and to my room. I still had a bad feeling, but I was soon be to go to sleep. Tomorrow's a big day. I'll officially be Will Mars.

The main reason I want to change my name and appearance is because I don't want to be me. Chris has fears of many things and is a depressed fuck. But Will Mars is outgoing and fearless. It's like what Slash, Elton John, and Buckethead did.