Worthy (Part 2)

Dicks and Feelings

Me: I feel like all we talk about now is my dick.

Dr. Winters chuckled a little

Dr. Winters: I'm here to talk about whatever you want Emory. Youre just at a stage where sex is becoming more of....a conversation.

Me: I think I need to change my meds or something. I go anywhere from being a horny teenager seeing his first playboy to a flaccid old man. It's embarrassing. And kind of painful.

Dr. Winters: We can certainly discuss changing your medication, but let's talk more about your experiences first.

I shuffled in my seat a bit, this was probably going to be awkward

Dr. Winters: When was the last time you had success with another person?

When was it? It had to be that time with Charley. But, we'd already talked about how my brain was shut off for that.

Me: The time i told you about the girl in the stall.

Dr. Winters: The one you've been seeing?

Me: well not seeing. But, she's the mother of Ellas best friend. So, yeah, I guess we've been hanging out.

She nodded and made a note.

Dr. Winters: And your date with...

She checked her notes

Dr. Winters: Stephanie? You said you were just not successful in completion?

I hated how she was dancing around the words. Just say it. My main hose wasn't spouting.

Me: Right.

Dr. Winters: With Stephanie, were you fully in the moment? No black outs?

I nodded

Dr. Winters: Stress along with the medication your on can be causes of this. You've been doing so well with the meds, I dont want to be too quick to change them. Maybe we should work on more stress management. I can also refer you to a different kind of therapist that specializes in situations like this.

A sex therapist. Cool.

I stopped by my moms after to pick up Ella.

She was tidying up when I popped in, i could see Ella playing with dad and Happy in the backyard.

Mom: So Eloise tells me you've made a new friend

What a blabber mouth.

I nodded

Mom: she asked your dad if her friend could come camping with her this weekend.

Of course she did. Those two were becoming inseparable. I'm glad she had such a close friend. Danny was a good kid.

Mom: Maybe, since you'll both be free that night, you could ask this Charley girl on a date.

She folded a blanket and put it over the back of dads recliner.

When did my mother get so nosey?

Me: mom, were just friends.

For the girls. We weren't even real friends.

She shrugged.

Mom: somethin to do.

Stephanies texting had gotten a little less frequent after our date. She still messaged me here and there, but I'm sure she's just letting me down easy.

Wouldn't you?

Maybe I should ask Charley to come hang out. Not a date. But, to hang out. We'd both need a distraction, and it would be nice to get to know her more i guess.

I pulled out my phone, making a big show of it for my nosey mom, and shot off a text to Charley

Me: Wanna hang out while the girls camp?

i made my way to the kitchen to grab two cookies, walked outside

Ella: Daddy!!!

She ran towards me but stopped short when i shoved a bite into my mouth.

I chuckled and handed her the other one. She gave me an ornery grin and ran back off.

I sat down and watched my dad chase her and happy with the water hose. My phone went off

Charley: okay.

Okay?

Why did i do this?

Dad sat down next to me.

Dad: why do you look so grumpy?

Me: This girl is so hot and cold. One minute she's making out with me in the bathroom, the next she sends me "okay"

My eyes went wide and I looked at my dad.

I literally just said that to my father.

Because that's not awkward.

Although, this isn't the most embarrassing moment he'd caught me in. Ahh to be young and still living at home.

He chuckled

Dad: So why do you let it bother you?

I just looked at him, what's that supposed to mean? Like i have another choice?

He shrugged

Dad: Seems like ya might like her enough to keep her around even bein hot and cold.

Me: Shes dannys mom. She's gonna be around.

Dad: doesn't mean ya have to let it bother you none.

Dad: all I'm sayin, you're sittin here with your panties in a twist cause of some girl i keep hearin you talk about at work.

No.

She's just around a lot. That's why I talk about her. I dont have feelings for her.

Well i did.

But those were literal feelings, sexual feelings.

God I never thought I'd say this in all the years I've been alive. But...

I'm so tired of thinking about sex.

I was going to plan a super fun, super innocent hang out with Charley.

I was going to show her a fun time. And I wasnt going to think about sex.

It was Charley.

That should be easy.

As long as she doesn't wear those little shorts again.

Those were hot.

I shook my head and grabbed a towel for Ella. I wrapped her up in it and she sat down on my lap. I kissed her cheek and squeezed her tight.

I was going to need something fun to keep me from missing my brat.