Worthy (Part 2)

Golf and Strippers

Authors note: Okay, one more quick one before we leave for vacation 😂

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I didnt sleep at all that night. After realization plummeted in.

I tried to make an impromptu session with Dr. Winters, but she was booked.

She would've taken me in, but... i didnt want her to move any other appointments around. There were probably clients that needed her more.

This could wait.

Right?

I wasnt dying.

I laid in bed trying to think of what she would say.

I mean, i dont think i LOVE her. But... i was working my way there. Maybe?

Her smile makes my heart pump out of my chest. Shes so....everything.

This was out of the fucking blue.

Ella came scurrying in with her sleepy eyes and bounced up on to the bed

Ella: Daddy, were gonna be late for school.

I looked over at the clock and groaned

Me: Go get dressed, I'll meet you in the living room.

She got off the bed

I thought about letting us play hooky today. I just wanted to cuddle up with her and watch Disney movies all day.

But I can't.

She needs to go to school.

She wasn't late. Thank god.

I got to work. I felt tired. My body, and my brain. I couldnt turn it off.

Tyler: You look like shit.

Me: Thanks.

Tyler: Feeling sick?

Me: No, just a rough night.

Tyler: Are you still dropping El off so we can golf tomorrow?

Shit. I forgot about that. I wouldnt even have my cuddle bug after work.

Me: Yeah.

Tyler: Hey.

He grabbed my shoulder

Tyler: You sure you're ok?

I nodded and grabbed my shit, and got to work.

I felt surprisingly better after work. Maybe I just needed to keep myself busy. It definitely helped me focus on something else. I was actually starting to get excited about tomorrow.

I dropped Ella off at moms that night, so she wouldn't have to wake up early with me the next day.

I felt a little off when i got home, it was too quiet here with out Ella.

So i went for a run with Robert.

I was surprised at how much he pushed himself. I had to constantly tell him to take it easier, or to take breaks. I was afraid he was going to stroke out.

He told me he used to be in the military. He used to run all the time.

He also told me about his daughters. One of them was pregnant with the first grand baby. His eyes lit up when he talked about that. It was a strange feeling to think, I would be a grandpa someday.

Maybe not. Ella was a polite wild child. She did her own thing, but she was sweet about it. She liked stuffed animals but not really dolls. Maybe she'd decide she didn't want kids.

She'd have a dog for sure though. She loved the shit out of Happy.

I'd be a grandpa to her future fur baby.

I'm okay with it.

I finally fell asleep that night but man, i had some crazy dreams.

They were about Charley and Annie.

In one Annie was pushing Charley and I together, in another she was pulling me from Charley.

In another Annie was rocking Charley in a chair, but her face morphed into Charley's and she had both littles on her lap.

My heart and my brain couldn't make an agreement.

I woke up the next morning in an even worse mood. I didnt want to go golfing with the guys. These guys knew me pretty well. I didnt want my sour mood to ruin the day.

I slapped on my smile and pumped myself up.

I picked everyone up and we headed to the driving range

The guys got their drinks, I got my soda and we found our lane.

They dove straight into their competitive sides arguing back and forth about who could get the ball further.

It was actually pretty funny.

My dad smoked us all.

While my dad and levi took their turns, Tyler sat down next to me with a big smile. He looked so relaxed, so happy. I knew he was beyond excited to marry Kim. I was happy for him. He deserved it.

Even if he was a bone head.

Tyler: Thanks a lot for this man.

Me: sorry it's not much.

Tyler: no, it is. We don't all really hang out together much anymore. This is nice.

He got up to get another beer and my phone vibrated.

I had mixed feelings when I saw Charley's name pop up

Charley: Hey! Busy tonight?

I wanted to see her. I wanted to talk about everything. But i wasnt sure how i felt yet. I needed her cheerful mood though.

Me: Unfortunately, Tyler's bachelor party tonight.

If you could call it a party. But, if he was happy I was happy.

Charley: Oh! I forgot! I'm sorry! Have fun gettin hot stripper ass in your face 😉 give her a dollar bill for me 😂

Me: I wish it was your ass 😉

I loved her ass.

Charley: Raincheck 😉

Ohhh?

Me: No take backs.

I smiled at my phone and shoved it back into my pocket. Her light jokes made me feel better. I was ready for the rest of the night.

We played around at Top Golf awhile more, then headed out for dinner.

Tyler was hammered by the time i pulled up to his house.

But so was Kim.

She came wattling outside with her arms outstretched

Kim: I MISSED YOOOOOU

Tyler: I MISSED YOOOOU TOOO!!

They were immediately grabbing at each other. It was sloppy and a little gross. I gave them a gentle shove into the house and they closed the door behind them.

They were for sure making a baby tonight.

They didn't have plans for a baby anytime soon, but I'm tellin you. They were wasted.

I got home and decided to text charley

Me: Hey, I'm sure you're asleep by now. I just wanted to say that i hope you had a good day today.

I crawled into bed and hoped I would have better luck sleeping tonight.