2𝙏𝙍𝘼𝙕𝙊𝘿𝙊𝙉𝙀ˢᵉʳᵒ

𝕗𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕚𝕟 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖ᵉⁱᵍʰᵗ

Kehlani's song 'Honey' played lowly in the background as Korei sat on Mina's bed. She had to say that the whole place was very pink and she liked it. Hanta had introduced the two of them and they immediately hit it off.

"So, you and Sero, huh?" Mina wiggled her eyebrows at the green-haired girl. Korei giggled and shook her head, trying to clarify that they weren't dating. "Oh come on! You two look cute as fuck together!" The pink-haired girl exclaimed, disappointed.

"We just met like, yesterday? He's helping me through my break up, " Korei explained. Mina hummed, narrowing her eyes at the girl before letting out a sigh. Immediately, Korei thought she had done something wrong. Was it what she said?

"Don't use him for a rebound, " Mina said and the heavier girl's face went bright red. She waved her hands wildly, stuttering out that it wasn't like that. The pink-haired girl nodded slowly, leaning back a little before starting to talk again. "I mean it, Saito. He doesn't deserve that. He's a good friend of mine and I can honestly say that I'd die for him."

"I'm not using him, I promise, " Korei spoke honestly, the serious tone in her voice making Mina smile and nod. "He's a great guy and I agree that he deserves someone great. We're helping each other with these little goals that we set. He's helping me get over my ex."

"How, exactly? How is he helping you get over your ex?" Mina asked, her arms crossed over her chest. Korei thought about how he deleted some pictures off of her phone, how just his presence helped her mentally refuse Shinsou, and how he spent all of last night comforting her as she cried. He was like her gay best friend, without the gay part.

"It's a bit hard for me to explain but it's actually helping, " she nodded. Mina hummed and Korei bit her lip, looking at her hands for a minute. "He deleted pictures off of my phone for me and he was really sweet about it. He encourages me to talk bad about my ex and he comforts me when I get emotional about it. It's only been a day but I'm not as broken up about it as I thought I'd be so I'd say it's definitely helping."

"Sero's never gone through a breakup before, " Mina said. "I can guarantee that he has no idea what he's doing." She added and Korei chuckled before realizing that Mina was being serious. "He gets ahead of himself sometimes, alright? Just, promise me something, Saito, " she began, placing her hand on the bed as she leaned closer to Korei. "Promise me that you won't hurt him?" 

"I won't, " Korei promised. She didn't want to hurt Hanta, he's the best friend that she's ever had! He'd probably be a great boyfriend too! He was nothing like Shinsou...he probably liked showing off his girlfriend. "I think that Hanta-kun deserves to be with someone as equally as great as him, you know?" 

"Hopefully he ends up with someone who likes thin lips because I'm telling you now, kissing him is not the greatest experience, " Mina joked and Korei raised her eyebrows in shock. She didn't know that Mina and Hanta had...kissed before. "It was a dare, ya know? Back in our first year, before I came out as a lesbian." The pink-haired girl clarified and Korei felt a little...relieved? Why? "What was your first kiss like? Was it special or was it something you wish you could take back?"

"Oh, my first kiss was..." she probably would have said magical if she hadn't thought about it. Shinsou was her first kiss and she always thought it was such a great kiss. She had nothing to compare it to, nothing to even think about besides that. It's just that she heard Hanta encouraging her to look at the flaws, to pick apart the bad things, and that's what she did. "I kinda wish I could take it back..." she mumbled out, thinking all the way back to that night. "I didn't really want to kiss him but I convinced myself that it was a really good kiss. It's just, he sort of ignored me when I told him that I wasn't ready? I don't know, it's really nothing but I just...I used to remember it so different but now it's like I'm trying to make him the bad guy and I just feel really bad about that." 

"Sometimes we don't realize someone's the bad guy until after they've already hurt us, " Mina said, patting Korei on her knee. "This kiss was with your ex, right? How long were you with him?" 

"We were together for almost two years. We met on the first day of high school and then we got closer from there. I thought he was so cool and I mean, I still do but it's like I can see that he's kind of got some bad habits, " Korei admitted. "I like to think that I'd be able to reject him given the chance but it's been a day so I know that's not true. I trusted him with my life and I still do. It's a lot harder to get over him because a majority of me still loves him. There's just that little piece of me that's screaming how bad he is and I think it's always been there, I'm just starting to listen to it now." 

"I know how that feels, " Mina nodded, comforting the poor girl. "Just keep telling me about the things you remember. I'm here to listen." Korei thanked her, propping one elbow onto her thigh and resting her head against her palm as she thought. Shinsou wasn't the saint she painted him out to be, he was actually pretty toxic like Hanta said. 

"Well, he uh, he didn't like to touch me but he wanted me to touch him all the time, " she sighed heavily. "He got mad at me when I asked him if he'd touch me. Like, he got pissed. And he wonders why I never wanted to have sex with him. I don't get it at all, he used to tell me that I was beautiful and that he loved me as I am, but he never even wanted to look at my body! I just, I kind of always hated that, " she confessed, picking at her nails. A soft smile planted itself on her lips as she remembered Hanta telling her she was hot. "It's not like I wanted sex or anything, I really didn't. I just wanted the same amount of attention that I gave him, you know? He always said he wasn't the type to give and I think that's a load of bull." 

"I agree, what type of person doesn't like giving during foreplay?" Mina was shocked by what she was hearing, this guy sounded like a real douche. Korei shrugged, honestly bewildered by it as well. Mina could tell that there was more so she settled in and listened. 

"He always wanted head but he told me he probably wouldn't kiss me afterward so I never did it. I mean, what's the point?" Korei liked telling Mina about this. She would have told Hanta as well, had he been in the room. He would be proud of her too, she's really on a roll with the bad mouthing! "I only gave him handjobs and he never even let me wear less than a t-shirt around him. It's kind of gross to me, now that I think about it. He was all about telling me to love my body but he didn't want to love it! I mean, he helped me with accepting myself but it would have been a lot easier if he at least showed interest in wanting to see me in my underwear!"

"You better not get back with him. Never! Abandon him, get yourself someone better! He just wanted handjobs and he didn't want to help you out when you got horny? Sorry but you honestly picked the wrong one, " Mina shook her head, disappointed in Korei's choice of guys. 

"I know! You know what I want in a boyfriend? What would make them absolutely perfect for me?" Korei smiled, thinking over the best quality that a boyfriend for her could have. "I want someone who'll encourage me to take nudes for myself, you know? Like, I just want a guy who doesn't think I'm dressing in lingerie for him. Basically, I'd like a gay best friend but minus the gay part and make him my boyfriend." She nodded to herself and Mina couldn't help but laugh. "I know some girls don't like being told that they're hot and sexy but that's exactly what I want, just from like one guy. I want to be...admired, I guess? Worshipped head to toe. I want a guy to just be so obsessed with me that he can't keep me to himself, he just wants the world to know that I exist and that he's...in love with me." Korei sighed softly, her gaze dropping to her hands once again. "I want someone to fall in love with me." She wished Shinsou had actually been in love with her.