Lavender

Chapter 5

i sit on the sofa, sat on the black bear and holding the white one to my chest, looking over it's shoulder while i watch something random on the TV, the Lavinder and Rose scent surrounding me lovingly. i hear the door open and moments later there is laughter, panic and anxiety spike in my chest and stomach as i turn to see Loz come in with a few other guys, they freeze when they see me, Loz smiles warmly when he sees me with both bears, "Ah, this is my roommate, Milky, Milky, these are my friends from class!" he says and i nod, standing up to greet them.

"Nice to meet you all!" i say formally and they look to Loz.

"what's with the formalities?" one guy asks.

"you sure like the colour white!" another says and i start to feel uncomfortable under one of their eyes, he's quite large, really buff, looks at me like i'm his arch enemy.

"Anyway, i brought food!" Loz says and holds up two bags of food, i can smell the chinese....again? he places them down on the table and picks up both of the bears and places them on the floor by the window, which is where i go and sit down away from the crowd, "oh, sorry, i should have told you!" Loz says apologetically, i shake my head.

"Don't be daft, it's me who should get over myself!" i say and give him a smile, enjoying the Rose addision to the Lavinder.

"i think we should play twister first!" one of his friends say, going over to a cobonate and pulling out some games.

"alright, monopoly after then!" another says and i sit there observing it all.

"Hay, what do you wanna play?" that really buff guy asks and i look to him in slight fear.

"Um, it's okay, i'll just sit here if that's okay!" i say and he hums.

"you sure your not an Omega, you look like one!" he says and i look away.

"Leave him alone, Cal, your a guest in his home too now so back off!" Loz says, glaring at him, to which Cal raises his arms in surrender, pealing his glaring eyes from me. i push myself further into my bears and hide myself with the first bear i grab, laying my head in it's neck, "see, only an Alpha would do that so boldly!" i hear and i look up, noticing everyone is now looking at me, i glare lightly and hide, my small body, making it easy to practically disapear behind these bears. 

i shut my eyes for a little while, making sure i have Alpha phormones being given off instead of any, even small traces of Omega, knowing they are very powerful. without realising i went to sleep i am woken up by an alarm, "oh, give me a moment!" i look up, seeing Loz walk away with his phone, his friends mutter some things before turning to me.

"So, Milky, how come your so small and..."

"Submisive?" his friends aproach me and i can't push away from them because i'm up against a window already.

"I don't know, it's just the way i was born!" i say lowly and then i feel the bear get ripped from me and my arms get tugged forwards, "Leave me alone!" i say slightly louder then meant to.

"Sh- you don't want Lorie to kick you out for seducing his friends do you?" a guy asks and i try to get out of their hold, but then my legs are stripper bare, i whimper and try to get out of this hold they have me in, what is Lorrenzo even doing? why did he leave? someone slaps their hand over my mouth to stop me from yelling out in pain as someone thrusts themself into me.

"No, help, stop!" i cry, but my words are muffled so no one hears.

"I've been waiting for a long time for this!" i don't need to look to know it's that bastard from before.

"sucks that it's an all boys school, there's no girls here!" 

"luckily, Milky makes a pretty good replacment!" 

i feel his member thicken, making me thrash at the unacceptible pain as he begins to knot inside me when i feel him and his knot get ripped from me, "Get out!" i curl up in a ball and shake in disgust, "OUT, how fucking dare you?!" i don't know this voice or this tone but a few thumps and a door slam later and they've left, "Milky?" i begin to cry while curled up, i don't even care what phormones are being given off, even when i give out Alpha phormones i am put through this because...what? i look pretty? 

arms pick me up and i curl up to the warmth, only to be placed down on a softer surface, "ill run you a bath!" i hear Loz say and i sniffle.

"no, it's okay, i can do it-" but the bathroom door shuts, cutting me off, he comes out moments later with a soft smile.

"i'm sorry that happened to you, i'll be reporting it to the head master as soon as possible!" he says and i look away.

"I'm sorry i cause you so many problems!" i say and look away.

"hay, it's okay, i don't care, non of this is your fault, but i do have one question for you-" i look back it him, wiping my eyes, "are you really an Alpha?" he asks and i look down, this is it, my life is over.

"i am, but i'm also Beta and Omega too!" i whisper, he doesn't say anything, "my family hates me for it, it's the reason why i can now and not when i was eight, they looked for a supressive medication that worked but it just created more and more problems for me and non of them worked, i told them it was dangerous to put me in a place like this but they ignored me, i told them i didn't want to go to a place like this where i am put in such a dangerous place but they ignored me, inface, my Father said that it's more of a reason to send me, may be it would get rid of me!" i sob, "please don't tell anyone!" i sob and look to him, he's looking to the floor in a large amount of confusion, "i asked to move to a different room, and room where there wasn't such a dominant Alpha as my roommate but they refused, especially since i can't give them the true meaning!" i explain and he just nods.

"i need to go for a walk!" he says distantly, looking confused but he stands up and walks out of the room.

i'm disgusting, a disgrace, i'm pathetic, weak i'm a freak and i'm a looser, everything anyone has said to me in my life, it's TRUE...even a nice Alpha like Lorrenzo thinks so, and i thought he was a friend of mine...he baught me a bear for crists sake! does he hate Omegas? is that it? that's everyone elses reason! it's all their fault, if they didn't violate me like this then i'd still have a place and this good day would of staid good...but no, things can't possibly go right for me can they? me and my fucking gender!