i step onto the train, feeling much better then the day before, Loz trails behind silently, i stand by the doors, out of the way, but still there, "i'm sorry if what i said upset you!" he says apologetically and i let out a breath.
"i may go to an Alpha school and release Alpha phormones all the time and stand tall and proud and speak so formally, but i'm Omega too, speaking of those things might not seem big or.....exciting to you full pledge Alpha's, but to an Omega it's......different!" i simply say, looking out the window, "with the Alpha you are, if i was just an Omega you'd of probably thrown me into heat-" i say lowly and glance to him as he looks down to his hands distantly, "my Omega simply will not behave now!" i say, turning away and looking back out to the moving city, i take a breath and let it out slowly.
"how long are we on the train for?" he asks, sounding....upset?
"an hour and a half!" i answer quietly, feeling guilty... what if he actually meant what he said? what if he wanted to mate and mark? what if he felt something towards me and actually wanted to try? is that why he's upset?....maybe i was a bit harsh...."i'm sorry-" i say softly, glancing to him, "i was a bit harsh and disrespectful, truthfully i was shocked by the words-" i look down, "you have to understand that i'm not normal, my life isn't normal, my biology isn't normal, my lifestyle isn't normal, Mating and Marking isn't just a sensetive topic for me it's also a forbiden one!" i say, standing slightly awkwardly, "i didn't intend to upset you, i understand that for others it can be something to smile and talk fondly of and i wish you luck in the futer if you'd to find a good mate to mark and stand comfortably with!" i say, not meaning for my voice to break slightly in the end, my heart hurts talking about this topic, but telling him good luck finding a mate.....why does that hurt more? is it because i know i won't get one? no, stop thinking about it, it'll only end in tears for you!
the train comes to our stop and i get off swiftly and go streight to the hospital, i stop, looking to the desk and i take my routined breath and collect myself, i step up and the woman looks past me, making me instantly break, she looks to me, "yes?" she asks and i open my mouth to talk but nothing comes out, "are you okay!" i let out a breath and start again.
"Mikky Lirick? i wa-"
"Ah, yes-" she cut me off, making me worse, i clench my fists as they begin to tremble, "i've sent him a message, he'll be right here!" she says and looks to Loz, "yes?" she asks.
"i'm with him!" he says and everything just makes me worse.
"AH, Milky!" i hear the cheary tone of my doctor, "Come on, oh, who's this?!" he asks me, expecting me to answer, his smile drops, he crosses his arms, looking cross, "Mikky, get over yourself, now tell me who it is!" he says angrily, i let out a breath and take it back in.
"This is my roommate, Lorrenzo, he asked to come after witnessing the side effects of yestirdays drug!" i say and hand him the journal.
"welp, come on, i've got a fun one today!" he says, skipping slightly as he turns around, taking the book, i slump slightly and healf heartedly walk on, i stand there and take my jumper off, "Okay, this one comes in a drink form, tablet form, capsual form and-" he smiles, i scowl.
"can't i just have the drink form?!" i plea and he laughs.
"sure you can-" he sticks the needle in and i whimper, he shoving me down to sit, "but where's the fun in that?!" he asks and patts my head, i breath slightly heavy, "this needle's quite thick, don't you think? your father said to use it!" he says and throws it in the bin, he reads the journal, "not bad!" he says and then writes a few things, then goes to a small booklet and crosses something, "now, this one takes only half an hour to work, so you might want to sit on the train back to school, your father was informed you didn't go to lessons yestirday? if this continues he said he'll be visiting this weekend to have a talk, now, off you go!" i sigh and stand up, going slightly light headed, "Walk it off, Mikky!" he says and i leave my hoodie off, dragging it behind.
"here!" my hoodie is pulled out of my hand, pulling me along slightly, i also notice he's got the journal.
"helpful!" i say and keep walking, standing and waiting for the train.
"are you scared?" he asks and i step onto the train.
"how could i not be?" i ask as we join the crowd, i grip hold of the bar when a dizzy spell welcomes it's self in like it's nothing.
"May be we should look for a seat!" he suggests.
"no, i'm fine!" i say, "it's only dizziness, i can cope with it!" i say, leaning against the bar a bit more, "i can't wait till this week is over!" i mumble, "i'd prefer to take one of my Fathers beatings then this every fucking day!" i say and stay strong till we get off of the train.
i get off and walk so slowly, not as slow as yestirday, but still very slow, "you know, doctors aren't supposed to treat you like that!" he says and i scoff.
"wow, didn't know that!" i say sarcastically, he's helping, he's done so much for me so far...stop being rude, "i apologise, i am currently feeling very irritated!" i say and i hear him let out a breath before i am picked up, "what are you doing?!" he yelp but he ignores me.
"people will think your drunk if you keep walking!" he says, carrying me through the school.
"put me down!" i growl but he continues to carry me, i wriggle around a bit until i catch his scent, he's letting it out to try and calm me, the calming phormones of fresh spices with a hint of lavinder.
"Good omega!" i growl lowly, feeling a spike of lust when he calls me omega.......damn it.
"Don't mess with me!" i growl, dragging my Omega part away from his intoxicating scent by my Alpha part, he pushes his Alpha phormones out, along with his scent and i instantly stop thrashing, instead i burry my face into his shirt.
"well, isn't this a fun reaction from you!" his chest rumbles and vibrates when he speaks which makes me purr, which i force into a growl and pull away again.
"OFF!" i shout and he growls, making my Omega whimper, but my Alpha growl... that's right my Alpha, i push out my Alpha Phormones to threaten him back and stick up for myself, he looks down at me and raises a brow, i glare at him, "put me down!" i growl when he drops me, i yelp but land on the sofa.
"better?" he asks and i lay there limply.
"uuuh-" i groan and he leans over the back of the sofa he dropped me on and smiles.
"how do you feel?" he asks and i just distantly stare up.
"like shit!" i murmer and look up to him.
"that's the spirit!" he says sassily before disapearing, i push myself up and sit up, looking forwards wondering.....why the fuck did i get this life?!
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Lavender
Fantasiaa boy, a child who looks so pure, hair as white as milk, eyes as white as a snow flake, pale skin from lack of sunlight....who would have known he struggles so much. his family is full of Alpha's, the house he lives in is full of Alpha's, but when...
