i am woken up by the loudest most high pitched screach known, "WHAT?" i hear one of my brothers shout and i let out a huff of breath when the bedroom door burst open.
"GET OUT!" i shout so loud they all freeze, Loz jolts up in shock, but Jay bardges through dancing around with the pregnancy test and i go dead pale.
"What are you all doing?" Lozie groans and Jay jumps on the bed, he grabs my arms and pulls me up but i just sit there, staring into nothing.
"Get up!" Jay beams, "come on, let's celebrate!" he says then Loz reaches for his hand and snatches the pregnancy test and he too freezes, he sniffs it, smelling MY scent all over the thing then looks to me in disbelief.
"are you-" he doesn't finish, i just sit there staring into mid air, everyone is silent, Jay's smile slowly dies before he sits down in front of me.
"Mikky?" he asks softly as i just continue staring, "hay, Mikky!" he repeats, waving his hand in front of my face as i begin to tear up, then my eyes widen...what if my Father hurts it? we already know he's planning to attack us all....but it was hard enough to become pregnant, what if i loose the baby and i can't have no more? what if all of this shit was for nothing?
"Mikky, baby, breath!" Lozie says and look at him, realising my breathing has deepened as tears fall from my eyes, my chest closing up, my head goes slightly fuzzy and my neck feels like it's being torched by a hot iron, "it's okay, talk to me baby, please!" Loz holds my shoulders and i just look at him and let out a sob.
"w-i-y-m-" i take a deeper breath, he pulls me to his chest and holds me there tightly, i cry panicked into his chet as i gasp for breath.
"it's okay!" he whispers softly, i continue to cry, i just cry and cry.
i can't believe i'm able to give him children of our own... this is amazing, i'm pregnant and-and we'er gonna be parents, Lorrenzo is gonna be a dad like he wanted to be....i'm giving him a heir to his futur pack. i'm gonna buy loads of things for them, clothes, toys, i'm going to spoil them.....funny how when Lozie said this i was against them being spoilt but now i just want to give them everything.
but what if my dad decides to head for them instead of me? i don't want them to get hurt because of ME. we'er still in the Alpha boarding school too....i can't be here, "it's okay." he shushes and i hick up before crying more.
"wi-i-uhmahhh!" i wine at the fact i can't get my stupid words out. i grip onto his arms as i soak his bare skin with my tears.
i'm gonna be fat...i'm gonna look like someone super glued a bowl to an ironing board...because that's what male look like pregnant, i'm sorry, Jay, but i can't imagine it. i was brought up with children out of the question, damn it love was out of the question for me before Lozie came along....and i was just told...i'm gonna be a mum and i'm able to make Lozie a daddy.
"i love you, baby!" he says and i look up to him and kiss him, he pulls away, "are you okay!" i shake my head no and hug his neck, my breathing is still escelated and i'm starting to go dizzy, "breath baby, breath!" he says to me and pats my back and rubs it, i sob and take deep breaths.
"i-i-w-"
"sh-sh-sh-" he hushes me softly and i sniffle, calming down a bit from my panic, "if you don't want i-" i slap him hard around the face, the slap ringing out through the room....my jaw drops and my eyes go wide, but he just looks at me with suprise, "okay, thank you!" he nods and i continue to look shocked.
"oh my god-" i whisper and put my hand over my mouth.
"Mikky, it's okay, it didn't actually hurt, your hand was suprisingly warm for you, your okay, Mikky-" he reasures, but i shake my head.
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Lavender
Fantasíaa boy, a child who looks so pure, hair as white as milk, eyes as white as a snow flake, pale skin from lack of sunlight....who would have known he struggles so much. his family is full of Alpha's, the house he lives in is full of Alpha's, but when...
