Lavender

Chapter 6

i look in the mirror, checking over my uniform to make sure it looks good, which it does. i walk out of the room, seeing Lorrenzo walk out of the room as soon as i walk in which is upsetting, it's my second week being here and he hasn't spoken to me once, a few words, but that's it, he leaves me food but that's it....i really have messed up.

i walk down the corridor, ovoiding everyone i can as i walk into the room i'm in, seeing the teacher already writing things down. i walk in and sit down at the back, getting out my note pad and pen when theirs a click and a thud next to me, making me jump, i look up seeing Lorrenzo....does he want to sit here? i should move, he oviously doesn't want to be near me, "i'll mo-"

"sit!" he says and pushes my shoulder down for me to sit, "I have an explination to give, you see, this is very shocking and a very new situation to me, you see, i like you, Milky, i always have from the moment i saw you and i was confused, but i guess when you told me this i was hurt that you tried to hide yourself from me like this, i needed time and space to think so i ovoided you, which wasn't the right thing, anyway, i'm sorry i made you feel like shit after what happened and i want to make it right!" he says and looks to me, "i'm here for you!" he says and i just look at him, my heart picking up pace, but before i can say anything the teacher speaks up.

"Alright class-" 

we walk out of the room together in silence, i feel awkward now....oh, "Thanks for the bear, by the way!" i say and he smiles.

"it's okay, it kind of shocked me that you had a black bear when you wore everything white!" he says and i hum.

"it's my families colour, strong, dominant, bold and formal!" i say and he hums, "it was given to me as a child by my Uncle, he has a thing with bears!" i explain and he laughs lightly.

"Well, i know you'll fit into my Pack perfectly!" wait, what? i stop and look up to him in shock, "my pack is almost always covered in snow which matches your eyes and hair, but when summer and spring come around Lavinder roses grow around our pack grounds and it is a very respected flower in our pack!" he says and smiles, i look away, i wish i got to stay in his pack instead of mine, "the roses mean love at first sight, and leaves the calming smell of lavinder over our pack all year round!" Lavander rose.

"that's why you added rose to the Lavander in the bear?" i ask and he nods.

"Lavander rose is one of my favourite scents!" he says and looks down at me, my cheeks redden slightly, i always smell of lavinder, it's become my scent from the length of time i spend with the scent..."come on, or we'll be late for our next class!" he says and i let out a breath. 

we get into our apartment and i feel so tired, i let out a long, long breath walking into the kitchen and gettign a glass of water, i have to be at the doctors monday morning....what time? i walk out with my glass and i pick up the sheet of paper i left on the counter in the livingroom sloppily, looking down at my scedual i see it's at....six in the morning.... i'll need to go to sleep in what? two hours? "Hay, what do you want for food?" Loz calls.

"oh, um, something small, i have to go to bed early tonight!" i call through.

"PIZZA?!" he shouts through the apartment and i hum.

"Sure!" i say and finish my drink, i get out my revision materials and begin studying.

"How come you need to go to bed early?" he asks, sitting down oposite the coffee table, i glance up to him and sigh.

"because, unlike normal people, i'm a lab rat!" i say and continue with my work, "i hope i can have this week off, i'll more then likely come home like a drunk person!" i mumble and he gets out revision materials.

"why don't you just tell them no?" he scoffs and i look up with a pained expression and he stops, "you cant!" he dully says.

"my parents get paid to make me go, it's a reason i get those hillusionations, the most commonly used heat suppresants messed me up so bad that its put on my medical records that i am forbiden, by the doctors, not to use them, even though a few poeple who don't know have given me them which they had to deal with me fucked up for about two hours streight!" i explain to him while writing down something for my homework.

"that's shit, have they found one yet, that works i mean?" he asks carefully and i shake my head, my heart chipping slightly, "what usually happens when they don't work?" he asks curiously, placing down his pen to consentrate on me a bit better.

i shrug my shoulders a bit, "can go from hillusionations to me just being a zombie, oh, there's one that put me to sleep for a whole two week too!" i quickly add, remembering how freaked out i was when i woke up, i punched three people and then got beat for punching those three people. 

"well, where do you go for it?" he asks in a slightly lighter mood...as if he's planning something. i look up to him, breaking eye contact with me and the paper.

"Why?" i ask carefully and he shrugs.

"what if you end up becoming a zombie and you need to get home? it could put you at a lot of risk!" he says and i hum. my doctors always come to my room, but now i'm at the boarding school, i have to go to my doctor...luckily he moved to a more convinient place, despite how much i hate the doctor with my life, but Loz has a point.

"It's one and a half hours from here on train, it's in unmarked territory!" i explain to him, "i'll send you the adress!" i say and click a few buttons, remembering the note with his number on and the adorable milk bottle and cookie...a small breath of laughter left my lips at that memory.

"What?" he asks and i tense.

"sorry!" i whisper and quickly send him it, turn off my phone and carry on with my work.

"why are you sorry? I wanted to know what made you laugh!" he pouts and i tap my pen a few times.

"The little drawing of the milk bottle and cookie!" i mumble anxiously.

"sorry, what was that?" he asks, i look up, he's cupping his hand to his ear.

"I found it adorable!" i say and look away with a slight scowl, "it was first time laughing in quite some time, it's a happy memory for me!" i say and continue with my work.

"well, i'm happy that it put a smile on your face!" he says and i glance up.

"why did you buy me that bear?" i ask curiously and he smiles.

"because it reminded me of you, your litterally like the same size as both of them bears!" he says bluntly and i raise a brow.

"you callin' me fat?" i say in a jocking manner, panic runs across his eyes.

"No, i didn't mean-" i go back to writing, with the dying wish to laugh, "oh, so it does have a sense of humour?" he asks and i gasp.

"IT?!" i say offended and he laughs, i smile and let out a breath, looking down at my work, continuing with whatever i'm writing. i don't think i've ever really had one of these moments....so this is another special memory to me. huh, i guess i am an 'It' you can't call me Omega or Alpha or Beta because i'm all of them.....i'm my own little spicies... an Alpha that can get pregnant... an Alpha that has a weak, fragile body but has strong arms and legs, quick healing and can throw a damn good punch... however can never get abs.....it's not fair. female omegas can get abs, even if it's just a bit...but i can't, my stomach might get a bit tough, but it only lasts until i calm down and even if i worked on it all week, the day i stop it stops being tough and strong....I CAN'T GET ABS....

"I'll get it!" i am knocked out of my thoughts by his words, i didn't even hear the knock on the door, "okay, i got you a cheese because you didn't tell me what you wanted and you ignored me when i asked!" he says and puts it down.

"It's okay, and sorry, i musn't of heard you!" i say and open the brown pizza box. i pull out a piece and bite into it, tasting and loving the stringy cheese, melting in my mouth....

"Damn, remind me to get you cheese next time too!" he smirks so i look away in embarrasment, he's so flirtasious...i don't find it annoying though. maybe it's a good thing...but what if it's a bad thing?