He holds me close and I feel the warmth of his chest. I can hear his heartbeat. It feels comforting.
I break away after some time and say,"I am sorry I unloaded all that baggage on u" and he quickly says,"Thank goodness it is a charlatan who can carry heavy loads."
There is sarcasm dripping from his words. I don't really know how to respond to the sarcasms so I keep mum.
" How come I have never seen u around?"
" I'm new here. Move around a lot."
" It must be fun"
"No it never is. No friends, no constant life, not like u"
"I have no friends either, and trust me being in a place where anyone knows everyone isn't fun "
" How come u have no friends?"
" Why"
" U look like someone who has lots of friends"
" At school I am an outcast, the nerd, the geek, the grumpy idiot someone who isn't reasonable and around here people gossip with everything they find"
"Sounds like a package deal"
" It isn't funny"
" Are u sure ur fine princess"
" I am fine. Don't worry. Maybe u can go back now"
It's good to cut this short. I don't mean him to misunderstand. I cannot be his friend even if I want to.
" If that's what u would like"
" Maybe u could wait for a few minutes, catch ur breath, rest a moment"
" Nah, I'm strong, and I don't tire out easily."
" Ok, then"
" Well next time, try not scare anyone"
" I won't"
And he leaves the way he came. I didn't want to turn him down but things will turn uglier if he stayed, and somehow anyone found out...no, better not think about it.
I get back inside see tears streaming down my cheeks. I am accustomed to it.
I wish I was braver
I wish I could offer him my friendship.
I wish I was more hopeful.
But life doesn't work that way now, does it.
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Wistful Secret
RomanceTake a ride with Iris on this beautiful journey, where she learns to live with her past, an hopefully discovers secrets that help her find who she truly is. I sat over the boundary wall thinking all this all by to myself. Sitting on the terrace alo...
