Wistful Secret

Change

"Wow, this is why u were hiding all those weeks, u hide and come looking like Helen of Troy". He thinks so, I conveniently avoided him because Sandra, his pretty 'babe' gets on my nerves and accuses me of stealing her boy, of course she only has sweet words in my presence, a sweet poison if you ask me.

"Come on, Don't YOU have your own queen whom u need to focus on". Sandra is in blithe, and Jason once again is ignored in presence of the Queen and her loyal courtiers, I nudge him slightly. I have been his friend only a few days, and I certainly don't mean to intrude, but Sandra is not right for him, hell, she doesn't even trust him.

Today is perhaps the last time I will see him, before we all go to colleges.  Jason says,"I no longer care"

"Why?"

"Don't you know, but then u blame me, I guess"

"Slow down, what happened, tell me, I honestly don't know"

"Okay, so me and Sandra broke up"

Thank goodness, I am not drinking, or else I would have split it all out.

"Wow, good . I mean, I am sorry, my condolences"

But I am grinning. I didn't know, then what was that Sandra girl told me to be away from her property.

Jason starts laughing and I join him too, while Sandra gives me a side eye. Okay, this is weird.

"How did it happen", I ask

"Things didn't work out, I guess"

"Oh, It's fine. We are leaving anyway and then, it will be okay, and maybe, love is still waiting for u down the road", I comfort him.

I am not going to mask my happiness, I mean, I don't have romantic inclinations towards Jason, but I seriously think, our sweet boy deserves better.

"So, how about I get a dance"

"You wish"

Jason takes my hand and guides me down the floor, and we dance for a little while. We both know each other, understand each other and I could never ask for a better friend.

After a while, we both tire out and return to the sitting area. It is fun to have friends after all. Now I have made some memories. Katie is there in too. While Jason chats away with his friends, me and Katie begin asking me questions, it sure is hectic to answer her extreme interrogation, but I  enjoy it, after so much of lone time, this is a welcome change.

"So, who are u trying to kill, cause there are many preys waiting", she winks as she says so. She is a lone wolf like me, and we have been hanging out a lot. I know a lot about her, she is not a total loner, but we clicked almost instantly. I felt like a new kid for all those years,and when I finally was accepted, there was nothing to be done,and now,when I should have looked forward for college, I am lamenting it. A few months and then, I will be somewhere else, in another city, another town, but then, this is the last dance, before graduation. But no worries,
There will be an abundance of memories that have come off this epouch of my life, both good and bad, which will have notable people in them.

We chatter away for a while more and then slowly, I blend in the crowd. Then Alexa shows up.

But today,her unkind words have not deterred me, not the slightest. Because I value myself. Nothing has changed on the outside, but today something has changed in me. I am the change.