Behind Every Regret (The Untold Tales Series #1)

31 | This is our end

"What do you want to eat?" mommy asked when she entered my room. I refused to get out of my room. I just want this pain to end.

"Nothing," I answered. Mommy has really been patient with me.

"You need to eat even a little," she said tapos umupo siya sa tabi ko.

I haven't talked to him since that day. I didn't go to the apartment at hindi rin siya pumupunta rito sa bahay. This is really the end of us.

"I was in that state years ago, I think you didn't know that," mom said.

"Dad told me you had a miscarriage," nagulat si mommy sa sinabi ko. Hindi niya alam na alam ko iyon.

"I will be here with you, don't worry, mom won't leave you," I just cried in her shoulders.

These tears. Hindi sila nauubos. Isang linggo na akong umiiyak pero ang dami pa ring luha na lumalabas sa mga mata ko.

I used to laugh with how my friends acted after a heart break. I didn't know all of them were real. I have no appetite and I just want to sleep at all times because I don't want to feel any pain.

This is too much for me to handle.

After another week, I decided to get out of my room. Kuya was waiting for me in the living room.

"Kylie,"

"Kuya," I kissed his cheek then I sat beside him.

"Are you feeling better now?" he asked.

"Ang plastik ko naman kung sasabihin kung oo, I'm not okay Kuya, I don't know if I will be okay,"

I lost him.

I lost the person who promised me the world. I lost the person who told me he would not leave me. I lost the person who I thought is the one whom I am going to spend the rest of my life with.

And I am certain that I will not be able to love again.

I lost our baby.

I lost my angel.

"Do you want to go with me?" he asked.

It was the second time he asked me if I wanted to go with him to Spain. He explained that it will be easier to move if I will not be in a same place with Kean, and Andrea.

"I don't know," I answered. Kuya just nodded and left me alone. He must have thought I needed time alone.

I touched my tummy and tears started rolling from my eyes. These tears! They really do not stop from falling.

After a week, Gail visited me.

"I'm sorry Kylie. I can't help you now, you know," her separation with Denver is still tearing her apart. They were a family.

"It's okay. I just want a companion." she hugged me and I felt her tears falling. "Why did we turn out like this?"

We were both miserable.

"I wonder if Indira is feeling the same but I wish she is happy with Andrei," I whispered as I look at the moon.

"Did you talk to him?" she asked. Gail being with me tonight is a big help. I knew she has her burdens too but she lend me some of her time and I couldn't ask for more.

"No," I said as I sip from my can of beer. Hindi pa kami nag- uusap ni Kean after what happened. I don't know if he knew that I lost the baby. "I just knew we ended."

"Kylie, you should have a closure," she said. But I think having no closure is the closure. I mean, what will happen next? He got someone pregnant so there's no other choice.