Collided by Fate

CHAPTER 22

ZACHARY

"You should take the medicines I gave you sir. Avoid yourself from being alone to lessen your anxiety attacks. You should go to some crowded places to ease your mi—"

"Fuck medicines! That wouldn't help me! I want my wife! I want my Falini!" I shouted at my psychiatrist.

"Anak.. Calm down."

I heard my mom's voice and then i felt her hands rubbed my back. But I just couldn't calm. This is not what i need. I need my life. I need my Falini.

I stood up and stormed out of the fucking room. My fucking stressed out. I hopped inside my car and drove it as fast as i can. I need a drink.

She's gone.

My life is gone.

She didn't even gave me a chance to explain my side. She didn't even waited for me. She left me without any words.

I cant take the pain that's making everything hard for me. I'm longing for her. I feel like im going insane. I miss her face. I miss her sweet loving voice.

I miss the how soft her skin against mine. I miss how she cares for me. I miss hugging her. I miss her lips. Specially her precious smiles.

I miss staring at her and kissing her when she's asleep. I miss her addicting scent. I miss her. I miss everything about her.

I want to blame myself for being that confident. Confident that Maurene my ex-wife wouldn't destroy what i have with my falini.

That vacation we had was the best vacation I've ever had. I get to know her relatives. I get to know her more. I get to be with her without worrying that her family might not like me.

I was glad because they accepted me wholeheartedly.

I already confessed that I love her. I was so happy because she is feeling the same way.

Everything that happened that vacation was all spectacular. But it didn't came in my mind that maybe that will be my last vacation with her.

We went home to London together. Hindi ko mapigilan na mang hinayang. Akala ko ayos na lahat dahil sobrang saya namin ng buong vacation.

Hindi ko maiwasang mag sisi. Maraming "sana" ang pumasok sa isip ko.

Sana hindi nalang kami umuwi ng london. Sana hindi ko nalang sya iniwan sa grocery store. Sana sinabi ko sakanya lahat. Sana hindi ako nag lihim sakanya.

Sana sinama ko nalang sya sa office ko. Sana sinamahan ko sya sa penthouse. Sana hindi ko siya hinayaan mag isa.

Edi sana.. Sana kasama ko parin sya ngayon.

I have no idea that the moment we had in the grocery store would be my last moment with her.

The kisses i gave her that day. I didn't know that, that would be the last time i would feel how good it is to kiss her. I have no idea that, that would be the last time I'd get to taste her luscious lips.

And I didn't know also that, that would be the last time I'd get to smell her. That, that would be my last chance to feel her body against mine.

I've never felt this broken before. I've never been this devastated. I've never been this lifeless. I've never been this miserable. And I've never been this fucking hurt.

I regret the day i left her. I regret letting my guards down. I should've known better. I should've strengthened my schemes to get rid of Maurene. I should've protected Falini.