No Matter What ~ Jackxpenn

Chapter 21 - A Sign

Jenn POV

It had been almost two days since the whole Jc incident. I honestly couldn't believe what had happened, I had always thought of Jc as a brother and not anything more.

I stared up at the ceiling in the guest room, not knowing what to think. I had to tell Jack, but how? Why is this so difficult? I still found myself lost for words, but I knew one thing for certain; Jc likes me, he kissed me, and for a second, I kissed back. Shit, why did I do that? I shook my head, but no matter what I did, the thought remained. I picked up my phone, and composed a new message to Jack.

I began to type, "Jack, I have to tell you something..... I kissed J-" I stopped myself. What the hell am I thinking? I can't tell him in a text! I scrunched up my nose and deleted the message, laying back down on the bed. Thoughts flowed around in my head, getting jumbled, making my head ache. I held my hands on my head, and closed my eyes.

You were both watching a movie. Your head gently rested on his shoulder, and his arm wrapped arms your waist. He turns his head and kisses the back of your head. You turn towards him to see... Jc? He smiles and picks you up to sit on his lap. He leans in for a kiss, and you kiss back? One of his hands ran through your hair while the other rests on your hip. You kiss back passionately and running your fingers through his hai-

I woke up screaming and drenched in cold sweat. Why was I dreaming about Jc? Crap, this isn't good, this isn't good at all. I patted beside me for my phone, still panicking about the dream.

I didn't know what to do, so I called Ricky. I dialed his number, thoughts spiraling around in my head. I was so focussed I almost didn't hear his voice.

"Jenn? What's wrong? Is everything okay?" he said, worried. I then realized that he probably thinks something is seriously wrong because I never call him.

"Oh no, everything's fine," I paused, "Well, not exactly, but I'm not hurt or anything," I said.

"What's going on Jenn?" he asked. I could practically hear the concern in his voice.

"Ricky, I had a dream.... And in the dream, I kissed... Jc," I managed to croak out, still surprised that I forced the words out.

Silence. All that I heard from his end was breathing and a faint sound of Kian yelling and screaming like always in the backgroud. Finally, he let out the breath he was holding and spoke.

"Jenn, I'm not sure what to say," he said, pausing, then continued, "I'm sorry. All can think is that it might be some sort of sign. I know you don't want to hear that, but it's just a dream after all"

My heart jumped to my throat. A sign? I felt myself going white in the face, and shook my head, bringing the colour back to my face.

"Oh... Oh okay," I said, quietly, and hung up, without even saying goodbye to Ricky. I couldn't imagine myself with Jc instead of Jack. Jack why can't you live here? Everything's grey and messed up when you're gone.

I thought of his smiling face and his laugh, making me smile. I thought of his soft lips touching mine, and the warmth of his arms, gently wrapped around my waist. I remembered the night we watched the stars until we got rained on; it was the same night I remembered Jack again for the first time.

My wide smile turned into a slight frown when I remembered what I did; I kissed Jc. What was I thinking? I wrapped my arms around me, and curled into a ball, stick to my stomach of how I would ever be able to tell him the truth.

Author's note: Hey guys! Short bonus chapter because I was taking a short break from studying for exams! Btw, if you didn't already figure out from my spelling/grammar (favourite, colour, etc.), I am Canadian! Whoo! Anyways, at least one more chapter tomorrow! And guess what? Tomorrow might be a snow day where I live :3 yay

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