No Matter What ~ Jackxpenn

Chapter 23 - Regret is Painful Disappointment is Worse

Jenn POV

I couldn't believe what came out of Jack's mouth. Were done? How could this be? I just lost the love of my life, and even worse, I was the reason. I was so stupid! How could I ever let myself be so careless? How could I forget him?

Tears streamed down my face as my head filled with endless thoughts of regret. I tried to speak but fond myself lost for words. It wouldn't make a difference anyways, he had already left my apartment in tears as well.

I sobbed into my hands, wondering what would come next. Jack and I had everything; or so I thought. Now what would come of our friendship? The Fab Five? My head throbbed thinking about it.

He must feel so hurt; so betrayed. Never in a million years would I imagine cheating on Jack, but now it had happened. Well, I wouldn't call it cheating...... But at the same time it was a pretty shitty thing to do. I just don't know if it would have gone any different no matter what way he reacted. I would probably feel so guilty that I would be the one to break it off.

I guess all good things come to an end. No! No Jenn! Jack fought for you. He stayed by your side as when you were in the hospital. He believed in you, he never left you alone, no matter how hard it was for him.

I squinted my eyes, trying to get myself to stop crying. Andrea would be coming home from a meeting soon, and I didn't want her to see me like this. Suddenly, I heard the front door open. Shit. Too late, I guess she got out early. I quickly ran to the bathroom, praying I could wipe my tears in time. I shrunched up the toilet paper, trying to blot my tears while hoping I didn't smear my mascara and eyeliner down my cheeks.

"Jenn?"

Shit. There she was, in the doorway of the bathroom.

I closed my eyes, bringing another flow of tears. So much for her not seeing me cry. I wrapped her into a hug, sobbing onto her shoulder. I hope she didn't mind, although right now I just needed someone, anyone, to hold me and tell me it would be okay, even though I knew it wouldn't be.

Andrea let me cry until I was out of tears. She hugged me tighter and turned my head to face hers.

"Jenn, what's wrong?" She said comfortingly, placing her hands on my shoulders.

I opened my mouth, and let out a small squeak. I couldn't speak. I squeezed my eyes closed, letting a few more silent tears roll down my cheeks, and finally found the right words.

"Jack and I.... We, I-I mean w-we're.... O-Over," I stuttered, fighting back tears.

Her eyes widened in shock, "Oh my god, Jenn. I'm so sorry. What happened?"

I looked down with hurt in my eyes. I knew it was my fault, and I also knew she would say it was my fault. I took a deep breath, preparing for Andrea's scolding.

"Well... I-I kinda k-kissed... Jc"

By now her eyes had almost popped out of her head and her jaw dropped open. She covered her mouth with her hand, hiding her surprised expression. Suddenly, she thought for a moment, and the surprise on her face turned into anger and disappointment.

"Jenn," she said much more serious, "Why would you kiss Jc?" she almost shouted, changing her tone once again to anger. Andrea put her hands on her temples and screwed her eyes shut, trying to process everything.

"I don't know Andrea! I-" I shouted back, but got interrupted by her.

"Jenn! Don't you get it? Jack loved you! More than you will ever know! What you did to him is just..." she shouted louder, but trailed off.

"Just what!?"

"Just bad, okay? He really cared about you! Do you know how fast he jumped on a plane to go across the country because you were in the hospital? He would do anything for you," Andrea said, starting to calm down. "Look Jenn, I don't know how you're going to get yourself out of this one," she said quieter, looking at my eyes, slightly disappointed.

I let my shoulders relax and breathed out. Andrea and I never fought like this. Her words really made an impact though, like they left a physical mark. Jack loved you.... He would do anything for you.... And the worse part was, I knew she was right, I knew I messed up, and I know for sure that this won't be easy.

Her words snapped me out of my thoughts, "It will be okay, I promise. It will all work out, even if the Fab Five and I have to step in to do so," she laughed slightly, brushing her hand on my arm before heading back into her room.

I sighed as I took out my phone and looked at Jack and I's old conversations. I would make it work; no matter how stubborn he may be. He fought for me, and I plan to do the same. But how? That I don't know. I wouldn't even though where to start.

TIME SKIP

It has been a couple days since Jack and I broke up. The pain hasn't subsided, in fact it has probably gotten ten times worse as time slowly goes by. I've tried texting and calling him several times, but nothing's working. Ignore is all I get. I messed up really bad, didn't I? Suddenly, the sound of a text message interupts my thoughts.

Jc: Hey babe, whatcha doing?

Babe? Wait what? Oh boy, I have a bad feeling about this.

Author's note: Hey guys! Long time so see! Extra update tonight :) I write my exams a week from today! Eek! Why can't final exams just go away? ;)

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