I think I sat there, unmoving and unthinking, for a few hours. It wasn't until Scar came up to help me in bed did I even realize that it had grown dark outside.
"Where's AJ?" I asked her, remembering I hadn't picked him up from school.
"In his room," Scar replied softly. I slid under the covers, closing my eyes.
"It hurts," I whispered.
"I know," I heard her reply just as I fell asleep.
When I woke up, my alarm was blasting "Tik Tok'. It was the first time in 19 years that I didn't want to wake up. I felt horrible and I didn't know how to deal with it. I was so lost in the obnoxious music that I didn't realize when Scar had come in and sat on the bed. Eventually the song ended, effectively snapping me back to reality.
"I don't want to go," I announced when I became aware of her presence.
"You've missed too much school," Scar replied.
"I don't care," I replied.
"I think you do," She countered.
"He told you?" I questioned randomly.
"He did," She agreed.
"So you know why I don't want to go," I stated.
"You mean why you don't want to see him," She corrected me. I nodded.
"I guess," I replied
"You guess?" She repeated,"Come on, shower."
"Where's AJ?" I asked when I realized I hadn't seen him since yesterday morning.
"He's downstairs, ready to go," Scar explained as she helped me up.
I nodded numbly as I walked to the bathroom. I took a longer shower than normal, letting my tears mix in the hot water. I haven't cried for years and when I finally did, I couldn't seem to stop. I reluctantly got out in order to brush my teeth and dry my hair. After getting ready, I walked downstairs with a heavy heart.
"Morning," AJ greeted me from his spot in the kitchen.
"Hey," I said back.
"What bit you in the ass?" AJ asked, frowning at my unusual behavior.
"My boyfriend, or ex-boyfriend now, is a werewolf." I replied, staring at a spot on the counter. AJ grew quiet. He didn't say anything. I expected him to laugh at the absurdity but nothing, not that I cared.
"You want to eat?" Scar asked, breaking the silence.
"I'm not hungry," I responded, grabbing my bag and exiting the house.
I sat in the passenger side, waiting for them to finish up. I had no idea how I was going to get through today. How was I going to look him in the eye? I was lost in thought, which had become more prominent since yesterday. I didn't come back to reality until after we had dropped AJ off and were sitting in the parking lot of the school.
"I want to go home," I declared to Scar as we sat quietly.
"No," Was all she said before getting out of the car and taking the keys with her. I scowled in annoyance. I hated her right then. My door opened and her long arm reached in and unbuckled my seatbelt.
"I can do it. I'm not a child," I snapped at her, pushing her arm away.
"You're a nasty bitch when you're angry. No wonder you fake happiness," Scar snapped back.
"There's nothing fake about it," I spat at her.
"Lies. You are in so much denial it's not even healthy. Whenever shit hits the fan, you act like everything is okay," Scar snapped back.