The next day
June
"Y'all are buggin' out!" I yelled.
"Nah man you're buggin, I ain't messing with no fat chick!" my homie Jarron yelled.
Whenever Jarron, Derrick and I get together we always have a debate about the dumbest things.
These my boy but they can be stupid at times.
I'm not better than nobody but there's nothing wrong with an intellectual conversation every now and then.
There's more to life than talking about females and money but I entertain them because I do t have too many friends.
"I have no problem with dating a bigger girl" I said halfway telling the truth.
"Nah you'd date one and tell her that you wasn't hiding her from the world but was hiding the world from her" Jarron laughed.
"Okay Drake" Derrick laughed.
"June had a problem when he dated Monica, I didn't forget Yo" Jarron teased.
There was no lie detected.
We are living in a day in age where bigger women aren't treated like women at all. Just because a person is big doesn't mean they are less of a person and I know that, but being caught with one would tear my whole world apart.
I don't care about Derrick and Jarron's opinion because they like ugly girls but my other homies would eat me up in the roast session and I could never live that down.
"You right though man" I chuckled. I wasn't proud of it but I've done it before with my ex girl.
I met her when I went to Chicago for summer break four or five years back. It started off with me getting her number and then it got so serious that she quit her job, and moved her and her baby here to New York, just to be with me.
Monica was down for me and I loved that about her.
But what did I do? I messed the whole thing up.
She started getting curious about my family and friends and why I was always out of town. I shielded her from my personal life because I didn't want people to think I had a fetish for fat girls or something.
That only lasted for another year before she moved back to Chicago and never spoke to me again.
I called her Moms and I even went down there to talk to her sister about getting her back but Monica didn't want me anymore.
Years later and she's married with three more kids and she's living the life that she deserves.
After that, I told myself that I'd never make a mistake like that again. Whatever girl I get next time, big, small, skinny or tall I'm gon show her off.
Of course my homies gon have something to say but are they gon' keep me warm at night? Make sure I'm fed? And rub my back after a long day at work? No!
It's time for me to grow up and be a leader not a follower because I missed out on what could've been the love of my life.
"Come to think of it Derrick, fat isn't the worst thing a girl could be" I laughed, "remember that girl you dated a few months ago? Jen? She was slim but baby girl was an ugly duckling."
Derrick dates stuck up girls and they be ugly on top of that. Being stuck up automatically makes you ugly but if you're already ugly and then you decide to be stuck up too?! Something has got to give.
Derrick got serious, "Nah she wasn't that bad."
"Let you tell it" Jarron and I said in unison.
"Whatever" he mumbled. His feelings hurt.
