Saving Harper

Choices

I ended up stalking Kylie Guerrero's Instagram while drinking wine on my couch pag dating ko sa condo. Of course, it was filled with photos during shoots, front covers for magazines, rubbing elbows with famous models and celebrities, and travel photos. Her followers are almost at 3 million.

Given, she looks like she had a nose lift and cheek bone surgery, but it doesn't matter. She looks gorgeous. And would probably still look good without those operations. I can just sigh. I was trying to look for Xavier as I scrolled through her 2,002 posts. Just when I thought she might have deleted any signs of her ex, there he is.

It was taken three years ago. Xavier's face was covered with a camera looking like he's taking her picture while she shot this photo. He was tagged and it was captioned 'You will always be my favorite photographer'. That was the only photo of Xavier in her profile so mukhang nag linis nga sya after they broke up. Just like Xavier. Except for that one picture of her.

It was sweet for the both of them kung iisipin mong they each left one photo of each other. Like they kept something of each other so they didn't really let go. Gusto kong sumuka sa lungkot kasi hindi naman ako pwedeng maging bitter.

Ohmygod feeling ko nanaman I'm stuck in a fictional book. But ngayon instead na ako yung bida, ako talaga yung other girl. The sort-of-love-interest until magkita sila ulit and they realize that they're still in love with each other.

Ako yung character na iniiwan for their true love.

Bangon ka nalang ulit Harper. Sanay ka naman e. Yun lang, hanggang kelan ka masasanay na ganito? Suck it up. Tutal nung Friday sabi mo naman na kahit friend mo lang si Xavier, ok lang.

But that doesn't erase the fact that I've already fallen in love with him.

Just try to get over that, Harper. I sadly said to myself. Wala naman akong choice, he's already someone else's. No, he's still someone else's.

Monday morning, I was still feeling the slump na akala mo nabreakan ng boyfriend. I dressed casually kasi yung meeting ko lang sa hapon was with my boss and Franco. Probably concerning a new project. I would definitely need it para madistract ako from Xavier.

Pag dating ko sa office, wala si Xavier sa area nya but his things were already there so I guess na kay Franco sya. I opened my door pero hindi ko na sinara since plan ko na kumuha ng coffee bilang naubos ko yung wine kagabi so masakit yung ulo ko. Alcoholic tita. I blame a certain model for it.

But I guess there's no need kasi may kape nako sa desk and a note on a post-it was attached to the mug.

Have a good morning, beautiful. :)

- Xavier

Okay paano ulit huminga? I'm so deep into this. Baka kailangan ko ng limang projects para hindi ko mapansin yung nararamdaman ko para kay Xavier. Or ten? Para di ko din maalala yung model nyang ex.

Bakit ba ang galing nya sa ganito? Ako lang naman makakakita nito pero he's still doing things na nakakakilig. Like we're still keeping up the appearances na kami. Can it be true na baka hindi naman sya nagpapanggap? Pero baka sweet lang talaga sya and pointless to think something of it. So, stop!

"Good morning, gorgeous." He greeted nung pumasok sya sa office ko with a big cute smile. Gorgeous. That was the exact word I used to describe his ex Kylie. Ugggh.