oneshots {dreamnap}

Jelousy🌧

Nicks POV:
I look down at my phone to go back on Twitter. Which typically was talking about Dream and George it made sense since they had the most amount of subscribers and a bigger fanbase, normally I wouldn't care but for some reason I'm jealous of George's looks and Clays talents more now then ever. I don't wanna get out of bed anymore, my hairs a mess. I don't know when the last time I showered was. I feel like I'm stuck in someone else's body watching the days go by, my rooms a mess I can't even stream because of it, and I don't really wanna stream either because of all the weird donations I've been getting. Don't get me wrong donations make my day, but sometimes they make me very uncomfortable. I was planning on doing a video with Clay a couple days ago but he was doing something with George. With that thought ringing in my mind I felt like nobody's favorite person, I was always a second choice. I hadn't posted in forever, tears start to roll down my face and I slap myself. "Don't be weak.. don't be weak.. don't be weak.." I told myself. It was about 3pm and my blinds where shut so it was still dark. I hadn't eaten anything today yet. And didn't plan on it either, having stayed up till seven am and slept till three pm, I heard a
Ping sound come from my phone I tiredly look at it the light burning my eyes from being in the dark
                                         Clay
'Hey Nick.. are you alright nobody's seen or heard of you in awhile..'

oh. Why am I being so selfish..
Selfish selfish selfish selfish selfish selfish selfish..
'I'm ok thanks for asking' I reply

'I know you're not. I'm coming over, I'll be there soon.'

'Wait no'

'Why not? Are you hurt?'

'I don't want you wasting your time on me, I'll be ok I promise :)'

'Ok..'

'Thanks clay I'll talk to you later:)'

i sighed relived I wouldn't need to get out of bed and put my phone down.

Ten minutes passed and I hear a knock at my door.
I groan getting out of bed still in the same oversized t-shirt and shorts I've been wearing the last three days. I go up to the door and open it to see Clay, I thought he wasn't gonna come.. "oh- uhm.. I'm sorry."
"For what?" He asks
"Making you come here. My house is supper messy right now and I just I look terrible-"
"No you don't."
"What?"
"You don't look terrible Nick."
"I don't?"
"No! Of course not. You're beautiful handsome, and have the best personality ever."
I look up at him shocked and confused and relived.
He brings me into a hug and tells me how much he loves me "I love you so much you're so much more then you give yourself credit for, you brighten so many peoples days and bring smiles across the room when you walk in. I love you so so much Nick. You're so important to me, please never leave me you mean so much to me."
"I- Clay.. I love you to. I love you so much you don't even know." I hug him back and we hug for a good five minutes before he kisses me and I kiss back.