call me back? •billie eilish book•

nine

[a tiny bit of nsfw]

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recap
Uh oh..I accidentally sent it. It must have been from me fumbling around oh god

6:26pm                    3G 90%
Billie

Hey Billie, I was wondering if you needed any help unpacking and decorating your room? Not to be full of myself but I'm really good at it
Read 6:27pm

That little "read" made my stomach drop...it was even worse when I finally came to terms that she wasn't going to reply

Fuck.
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•• Laila's pov ••

The whole night I stared at my phone wondering if I was at least going to get a "sorry I didn't reply" but nope. I need to not get attached to Billie she's just gonna hurt me. Call me soft but a "no I'm good" would have made me feel better than not replying. I feel like I did something wrong.

** time skip **

I didn't sleep..big shocker there. From the thoughts that were running through my head last night to the not being able to sleep already. No amount of melatonin could have knocked me out. I feel like such a baby because I'm all butt hurt about Billie leaving me on read. I'm not even surprised. Fuck my "I want to get to know her" blah blah.

I didn't get anything together last night. I didn't even shower like I normally would. At least I got to choose when I got out of bed. I made my ass get up at 5:40 so I can have a shower.

After my shower I threw on a baggy pair of jeans and a baggy black tee shirt and for shoes..again whatever pair is closest to me when running out the door.

I didn't put on any makeup today, just didn't feel like it. Well aside from chapstick and brow gel. If i don't use that shit my eyebrows go left right up down northeast whatever the fuck directions.

It was still pretty early so I came up with all the possible things that could happen when I see Billie in math. I can easily avoid her in vocals but not math I sit next to the bitch. Maybe she will apologize. Maybe she will act like it never happened. Maybe it will just be awkward small talk. Or maybe we just won't talk at all, which part of me is hoping for. I feel like I'm just being soft about this and over thinking it UGH. I hate myself sometimes and my stupid brain.

I finally get a text from Nessa after 30 long minutes of just staring at the ceiling left alone with my thoughts.

7:58am                  4G 97%
my bitch💖

I hope your awake stink, I'm gonna pick you up early and we're gonna get some breakfast. My treat. Be there in 5☺️☺️
Read 7:58am

I'll never get over how lucky I am to have Nessa as my best friend she really is the best. I waited outside for her and she rolled up 5 minutes later just as she said. Always on time.

We both mutually decided on dunkin because it was easy. I already know Nessa is going to get a medium iced coffee with 3 pumps of carmel and oat milk, with a blueberry muffin specifically the one with the hardest top because that's how she likes them. Her order has been the same for 3 years.