call me back? •billie eilish book•

nineteen

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recap
I wish she was in my arms with me. I wish I was twirling her soft hair around my fingers. I wish I was looking into her fucking beautiful eyes.

I wish she was here.

*ping*
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•• Billies pov ••

My heart pounded. But I didn't even think twice about grabbing my phone.

1:02pm                    4G 65%
Vanessa

I think I know where Laila is meet me outside
Read 1:03pm

I quickly cleaned myself up, putting bandaids over the fresh cuts, threw on a sweater, grabbed a bag I had already packed, put on shoes and ran the fuck out the door.

Vanessa was already outside waiting I hoped in the car and we drove off.

The car was tense,,it felt uneasy and I couldn't take the silence anymore

"Where the fuck is she, you going to explain at all"

"Calm down Bil..this is going to be a long drive"

The drive is going to be 10 times longer if this bitch doesn't step on the fucking gas. She's driving slower than my mom and that's saying something.

An hour goes by and she breaks the silence.

"What do you have in the bag Billie" She questions

"A glock, just in case I have to kill any bitches"

She laughs uneasily.

"You never know" I admit

Didn't want to go all soft mode in front of her, I mean like I'm not soft but besides the point. In the bag I have..a sweater of mine and fuzzy socks because I know Laila gets cold really easy and I know she likes my sweaters. Oh and I wasn't kidding about the glock.

Maybe if I text her again.

2:27pm                                 4G    63%
Laila

Laila please, where are you
Delivered

** Time Skip **

3 hours go by and no we are in the middle of fucking no where. Literally all I see is trees and bushes. I'm getting so impatient at this point I just wanna know where the fuck Laila is.

I hate this. I hate that I caused all of this.

If I didn't leave that night none of those would have happened.

"Okay we're here"

"The fuck we are,,we're in the middle of fucking no where"

She gets out of the car and drags me out of it too.

Vanessa grabs my head and turns it around. I see a small cabin about 2km in the distance.

I don't hesitate and start sprinting towards it.

Forgetting the fact I have asthma I slow down about half way there considering the fact I can't fucking breathe.

This is my cardio for the next week.

Fuck Billie no, no jokes this is serious.

I finally get to the door after a long ass time, hesitantly resting my hand on the cold door handle. Either I walk right in or knock..

Twisting the door handle I let myself in, cold air immediately hitting me. It feels like no one has been here for ages.

"Fina-fucking-lly that took you a long ass time to get up here"

"Sorry I was trying to-"

I walk away, my mind set on finding Laila. I swear to fuck if she isn't here I'm going to fuck someone up.

Going through all the rooms one by one..nothing absolutely nothing she's not here.

"What the fuck Vanessa I thought you said she would be here"

"Well I didn't know for sure it was just a guess"

"Didn't know for sure" I mock her "Don't waste my fucking time" I walk away and head to the back so I can just think

This is why I don't get attached to people.

This is why I'm not supposed to genuinely care for anyone, it always ends up fucking hurting me in the end.

I promised myself I would never feel this way about anyone because last time it fucked me up.

But here I am having those feelings once again and being fucked up once again.

Walking farther into the forest I find a little tree house.

The sun was setting so I already know the view up there is probably sick.

Climbing up the ladder I'm reminded by my old house. I used to have a treehouse, my dad built it for me and Finneas. We would always sit in there together and write songs, or play games.

I miss when times were simpler.

Getting to the top, I open the door

"Billie?"
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sorry for the long wait :((