call me back? •billie eilish book•

twenty eight

FIRST i wanna say

thank you so so so so so much for 10k reads i'm cheesing so hard rn cause im so happy y'all are so cute. i appreciate every single one of u, literally every single comment and vote i get gah it makes me so happy.

i haven't updated in so long i'm now at 23k reads..
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i hate this part so much but i wanna update for y'all,,so sorry for the sucky writing :( and sorry for disappearing for a while.

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recap
Gently twisting her door handle the familiar bright red lights fill my vision. Opening it slightly I pop my head through the crack to see her laying on her bed.

Looking so helpless almost.

"Billie?"

She sits up almost immediately.

"Laila?"
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•• Laila's pov ••

"Why- why are you here?"

"Girl the fuck you mean why am I here are you forgeting somthing or?"

She sighs "Can you just please go?"

"No billie I want to talk,,and like talk about everything"

"Laila-"

"Billie please" I pause "please"

Slowly slouching back down turning to face the blanket covered wall "sit" is all she says

Fully opening the door I close it behind me, proceeding to walk over and sit on her bed, she doesnt move.

"Here"

She peaks over at the plate I was holding and immediately blurts out "No its okay you can have it if you want"

"Billie-"

"Laila I don't want it"

"Billie take the plate"

"Holy fuck I don't want it okay? Stop offering it too me" She turns her head back around

"I wasn't offering it to you,,I'm giving it to you and you are going to eat it. You need food I don't care if I have to feed it to you like a little baby....so once again here." I shove the plate in her face

She takes the plate finally giving in knowing I wont let this go,,her face illuminates as she fully turns around becoming more noticeable in the light. I look into her tear stained eyes, eyes I felt as I didn't even recognize. Billies eyes normally have a little sparkle in them that's one of my favourite parts about them, but this time her sparkle has faded and the bright blue has turned into a muted gray.

I know this is more than her just being bummed out over the fact I have a boyfriend. What her mom said about seeing her like this again has been glued inside my brain ever since. I'm worried for Billie because I don't know what's going on. Unfortunately I don't think I will ever really know what's going on. She's a closed book that I can tell isn't ready to open any time soon. Especially to me. It frustrates me that I don't really know anything about her.