call me back? •billie eilish book•

twenty four

i just think that zoe,,that's it. also my font keeps randomly changing if u know how to fix that pls lmk!

oh also i'm gonna do little check ups at the bottom after every part!! i wanna make sure y'all are good🥺 so talk to me and don't make me look like a fool

TW: mentioning of suicide/death (kinda but not rlly just thought i should put a warning!) also mentioning of alcohol and drugs

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recap
She breaks the distance by smashing her lips onto mine. The kiss was full of hunger we both needed more. Moving from the door to the bed, I was now straddling her. Our lips still attached. Slowly bringing her shirt over her head-

•• Laila's pov ••

I really hope Billie is okay.

It's hard not too think about her but that's all I do.
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•• Billie's pov ••

Well fuck I've got myself in a nice situation. Drunk as fuck, high as a kite, and I need to get me and my sexy ass dragon back home.

Moral of the story I can't fucking drive, I can't get my mom to pick me up because she'd smack me upside the head and tell me how disappointed she was and I'd rather die than have that. I can't walk home cause there's no way in hell i'm leaving the dragon here and I also don't know where the fuck I am.

I'm fucked.

Worse part is the only "friends" I have here is Laila and FUCK THAT HOEEEEE. We don't fuck with her no more.

I could ask Kennedy for a ride, wait Kendal? Kendra? K...Kayleigh? Kylie? Kathrine? Kylie? Kara?

"Billie you good?"

"Oh hey...you" I say hesitantly

"You fucking kidding me right,,it's Kayla dumbass"

Fuck that's right Kayla.

"Yes I knew that" I say slurring my speech

I was noticibly fucked, Kayla on the other hand  looked to be almost completely sober. Even though she wasn't.

"Come on let's get you home, we can take my ca-"

"No" I blurted out "No way I'm leaving the dragon here"

"Alright then give me the keys"

Hesitantly I hand them over and lead the way to my car. I ran through all the rules quickly but in full detail. Even though I can barely think I still gotta let a bitch know, if she happens to put a scratch on my car she's dead, not only to me but also physically.

I gave her my address and she started to head to my house. It was only a 45 minute drive back. My parents haven't texted me, assuming they think i'm just at Laila's.

As we get closer to my house my heart starts to pound faster, and faster, and faster. I've always been good at pretending to be sober when I wasn't, but then smell of alcohol and weed was glued onto me. Finneas, omg Finneas. I forgot he would always cover for me when I got home after parties. I'll tell him to cover for me again, then he'll probably force my ass to explain to him.

2:27am            4G 62%
finneas

listen i'm a dumbass i know, pls cover for me.

huh??

omg u stupid hoe, use ur brain

you owe me an explanation when you get home
Read 2:30am

My parents are probably asleep but I can't have them smelling this shit. I pull up to my house and am greeted by a very angry Finneas.

Kaylee, Katy, K..Kayla fuck. Kayla hops out of the car handing the keys back to me.

"So what are you going to do" I ask

"I'll call an uber to my house or something, don't worry about me"

"Wasn't planning on it. Bye"

Walking up to Finneas not even hesitating to look back. As I said wasn't planning on worrying about her, I honestly could care less about her. She was just a quick fuck, honestly wasn't even that good.

Finneas hands me a bag, new sweater, and my warm vanilla sugar body spray then he heads back inside. I take off the sweater I'm currently wearing and put it in the bag making sure to spray it before i tightly tie the bag closed. Throwing the new hoodie over my head I spray myself before entering the house.

He hands me a glass of water and some tylenol for the headache that I can feel coming. He told me to meet him in his room after I'm all situated, knowing myself I won't go to his room but knowing him he'll end up coming into my room. Finneas is a good brother, I won't lie. He may be an annoying dumbass at times but he's always been there for me.

Quietly going to my room I change my pants and put them in the bag with my sweater spraying it one more time. This routine felt way too familiar, it was comforting in a way. Coming home at a late time, Finneas meeting me at the stairs with the same disappointed expression handing me my stuff, him giving me water and tylenol then disappearing for a bit. He would always check on me though, just to make sure I was okay.

Just as I suspected after about 10 minutes he showed up in my room.

"Billie-"

"I know I know, I'm stupid. I shouldn't have done what I did, believe me I regret it. Just don't tell mom"

"I wasn't planning on it Bil. But why?"

"Long story"

"I have time"

I explain everything to him. As much as I absolutely hate opening up to people, Finneas is the only one I feel comfortable with. I also knew if I kept it all to myself I'd go insane.

The only part I kept from him was the fact I fell in love with Laila. The fact I'd do anything for Laila. The fact I want her in my arms 24/7. The fact all I want to do is keep her safe. The fact I want to call her mine. Because once you say something out loud it becomes true, and I don't want any of that to be true.
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this is dedicated to the person who wanted more of billies pov👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

check up time :)

how are you today!

did you eat something

did you drink some water

take care of yourself my love <3