Seasons Of Desire

Chapter 19

James

The party was amazing. Just Lola was annoying me. Since that night in my house I had a ot of sex with her. I wanted to forget Blaire. And since that night, she was always on my side, like I was a trophy. We didn't had a relationship, more an affaire. But I had sex ith other girls as well. I really tried to become the old me. I knew that Matt met Blaire from time to time. And it fucked me up.
And to annoy me at all, I saw Blaire. And she looked georgous and hot. I wanted to ran up to her, catch her and fuck her until we both couldn't stand. But I took a deep breath and drunk another shot. 

I saw Matt was watching her. Why couldn't I stay at home. "Hey, Matt. Stop watching Blaire." I said as I walked to him. "What? Why? She's awesome in bed." Matt answered and it was enough for me. I took his shirt in my fist and pulled him close to me. "I said, stay away from her. Okay?" and pushed him away. "What's your problem dude? You don't want her anymore." he yelled. "Just do it!" I said loud. He was right, I hurted Blaire. And if my best friend made her happy, than... But no. I couldn't stand the feeling that he fucked her in the room two doors away from mine. I knew Matt, he would hurt her, and she didn't deserved it. But I had to keep her away from me. Whatever it takes. Fuck. Couldn't I just live in a normal family? My dad was happier when I fucked every girl on campus than having a girl like her by my side. It didn't make sence at all, at least for me. Blaire looked so happy, her laugh made me smile, I watched her.  She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back. It felt so good. Somehow it felt like I missed her, like I needed her. I was in my thoughts and with Blaire. Until Lola came and took my arm. I looked at her and said: "Lola, what do you want?". "I want you James." she answered.

"Hey." a shy voice said and I knew this voice. I turned my head. "Hey" I said soft. I shouldn't be happy and should've stay away from her. Shit, she made it so hard for me. "Hey!" Lola said roughly. But I just had eyes for Blaire. "Uhm, look. I know that it didn't work with us, but, uhm, I hope we still can talk to each other, and..." she started and I was so happy about her words. I couldn't and didn't want to stay away from her, even I couldn't have her. But suddenly Lola laughed out loud like a bitch. I hated her in that moment. "You wanna be friends with James? Hahahaha... Seriously? Honey, you will never be a part of us. Just noticed it. You was just a little amusement and he got bored of you, and he was smart enough to go back to the good stuff, me! So just leave the party and leave our life. Nobody needs you here."

I was shocked, so shocked, I couldn't say anything. And that was my mistake. Blaire looked shocked at me and I didn't say anything. A tear rolled down her cheek and it was tearing up my heart. I wanted to hug her but I was still in shock about Lola's words. I wanted to respond but Blaire said: "Okay, I got it. I will...." but she couldn't finish and ran away "BLAIRE" I shouted but we was gone. "Are you fucking stupid? What was that Lola?" I yelled to Lola. "What? I helped you!" she yelled back. "It's my life, okay? I never wanna see you again or hear a single word from you, because..."

Suddenly people started to scream. I turned around. Fire. Where was Blaire?

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Oh oh.... not good at all. What do you think will happen? I can tell you, that the next part will be heavy!