Seasons Of Desire

Chapter 26

James

She wanted to come. She wanted to support me. I didn't deserve her. "Here, drink the coffee." my sister handed me a cup. I nodded, wasn't able to talk. "James, you should go home, take a shower, and a nap." she stroked over my back. "I can't" I wispered. It was my fault that my dad was fighting for his life. My mom was sitting beside his bed, holding his hand. I couldn't handle the feeling that I was the one who tear them apart. My head fell in my hands. My sister was still stroking my back. "Did you call Blaire?" she asked carefully. "She texted me, and I told her." I wispered in my hands. "She wants to come" I continued. "You really love her, right? I never saw you like this." I looked in her eyes. "I do, Ally. But I just don't love her. I need Blaire, like the air to breath. And it scares me that I need her that much." a light smile came on her face. "She's the one." she wispered and a tear rolld down her face. I wrapped my arms around her and hold her close to my body. "You're such a good guy, James. And I'm so happy that someone saw it." I kissed her head while she cried on my chest. "In the past we were inseparable. We were best friends and did everything together. What happened? I miss my brother." she cried. "I think that dad controlled our lives, we were going our own ways. But whatever happens, I'm always there for you, baby sis." I said. "I missed my brother and my best friend." she cried. "I'm here. I'm always here." I answered and kissed her head. I hold her close. I missed her, too. When we were children we did everything together. Boys who treated her got a problem with me. "Mom won't be happy that Blaire is coming." I mentioned, more to myself than to Ally. "But you need her. Josh will come as well. I will talk to mom." she lifted her head with a light smile. I smiled back and stroked her tears with my thump away.

Suddenly the door opened, and Blaire was standing there. She was out of breath. Ally nodded and I stood up. I opened my arms and wrapped my arms around her tiny body. I closed my eyes. "I'm so sorry." she wispered. But I couldn't answer. We pulled away. "I'm Ally, James little sister." Ally said. Blaire wanted to gave her her hand "I'm Blaire, James girlfriend." she answered shyly. But my sister wrapped her arms around her. "I'm so happy he found you." Ally wispered and I saw that Blaires body relaxed. "Me, too." was her answer. I smiled and my sister winked at me. I was so proud of Ally. Whatever my dad did, she didn't change. She was strong enough. But I wasn't.

The door opened again and my mom was standing there. "What is she doing here?" she asked. I never saw my mom like this. She was perfectly styled as aways, but her face was pale, eyes filled with tears. I swallowed. "It's her fault." my mom wispered and broke down. "Mom, let's take a walk." my sister said and stroked my arm. She walked over to mom and hold her. They left the waiting room.

"Shall I leave?" she asked and I saw she felt uncomfortable. I wrapped my arms around her. "No, please stay. I need you." I wispered and put my hands on her neck. Smelled her scent. She hold me closer and stroked my back. "Okay. I'm here for you." she wispered.

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What do you think about the situation? And what do you think Blaire and James feel right now? xoxo