Seasons Of Desire

Chapter 22

I couldn't open the door and the flames came closer and closer, I couldn't breath. I heard James voice, far away. He screamed my name, but I couldn't answer. I had panic, I wanted to tell James that I'm here. I wanted to tell him so much more. I cried. The door didn't move at all. James voice left me more and more. I wanted to scream "I'm here! Don't leave me!" but my words didn't came out. The smoke was too thick and I felt dizzy. The only thing I was thinking about was James. But I couldn't reach him. I won't see him again...

"Blaire, wake up. Please wake up baby. it's just a nightmare!" In the middle of the night I woke up because someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes and it took me a few moments until I knew where I was. I breathed hard and fast and my cheek was wet from tears. "You had a nightmare" James said softly and stroked my cheek. I cried and he hold me close "Shhh" she said again and again and stroked my back and my head. "I thought I would die. And, to be honest, I wished you was there. I felt so alone. And I wanted to tell you so many things, and..." another tear rolled down my cheek. "Hey, we're here. Together. Do you wanna tell me, what you wanted to say?" he asked softly to calm me down. I leaned back to face him. "What if my words ruin everything now?" I was really scared that he would leave me again. Right now, I needed him the most. "I won't leave you again, I promise Blaire." he answered. "I wanted to tell you that I missed you every single day. I wanted to say that I need you and that my time without you was so empty. I fell for you, James. I love you." I said and covered my face with my hands. James never had a girlfriend. He wasn't the guy for a relationship. I didn't want to look at him. He had to be shocked, maybe scared. Maybe I was just another stupid girl who fell for the bad boy on campus. James took my hands and looked at me. "I missed you, too. I wanted to be the old one. I was happier. But it didn't work at all. I missed and needed you every single day. I watched you so many times and my only wish was to hold and kiss you. Damn, I have no idea how it happened, but I started to love you, Blaire." he said. I was shocked. "Did you say you love me?" I wisper asked. "I do. And yesterday, the tought of losing you. It killed me." I was so happy that I needed to hug him tight. "But what about your father?" I asked. That was the reason why he left me. "I don't care anymore. Blaire, if my dad isn't happy with my choice, it's... I won't leave you again. Never. I will tell my family. And if I won't get any financial support, I will work, or something else. But I won't let you go again. It was the worst mistake I've ever made." he mentioned. I was so glad and happy. To know that he loved me, that he would do anything for me. It meant the world to me. I snuggled close to him, enjoyed his body close to mine. "So, can I call you my boyfriend?" I chuckled. "I am what you ever want me to be." and kissed my head.

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So, James put Blaire first and both told each other what they felt. But it's gonna be a tough time for both of us. Will they "survive"?