Chapter 14
Some things aren't just really meant to be. Alam kong sobrang taas ni Jairus para sa akin. I feel like I don't deserve him. He is super out of my league but I chose to take the risk and ended up with a broken heart.
I was so devastated with what happened with me and Jairus. Hindi ko na siya nakausap simula noon at hindi ko siya nahayaang ipaliwanag ang sarili niya pero kitang-kita ko naman ang kataksilang ginawa niya. What's the point of hearing his explanation? I will still decide to get away from there and our relationship.
Naikwento ko ang nangyari sa aking mga magulang nang nasa Spain na ako. Gamit ko ang laptop ni lolo kada tawag nila sa akin. They got angry at Jairus and they made sure that he won't follow me here. Hindi ko alam anong ginawa nila pero hindi ko naman nakita na si Jairus simula nung nangyari.
I stayed in Spain the whole summer. For the past months, I didn't opened any of my social media account. As much as I want to stay here forever, I don't want to ruin my goals just because of him. Magpapatuloy akong mag-aral sa Pilipinas dahil gusto kong makasali sa Philippine Team.
Daddy already enrolled me in a good university in Manila. I don't want to go back to Davao anymore. There is a chance that we'll see each other in Manila pero bahala na. Sana maging busy siya sa company nila doon sa Davao.
Napili ni daddy yung paaralan na madalas kinukunan ng athlete ng Philippine Team. I already signed up the online try out form and I will be going to Manila this week for the try outs.
Kahit anong lungkot ko sa nakalipas na tatlong buwan, naglalaro pa rin ako dito sa Spain para hindi mangalawang.
"What if you see him again?" Jarrick asked as I packed my things for our flight to Manila tomorrow.
"Come what may, Jarrick." I didn't expect that Jarrick would be my close friend here. Nagkita kami isang araw sa isang mall dito sa Barcelona at nalaman kong may bahay sila dito. Plano niya sanang maglipat-lipat ng bansa para sa bakasyon niya pero napili niyang mag stay dito sa Barcelona para samahan ako. Mukha raw akong depressed kaya naawa raw siya sa akin.
"Naka move on ka na ba?" He asked.
"Honestly...not yet. It's just three months for fuck's sake. Ayoko siyang makita. Iniimagine ko pa lang mukha niya, nasasaktan na ako. How about if I see him personally?" Jarrick looked at me with sympathy in his eyes.
"Try mo kayang mag boyfriend."
"I don't wanna hurt anyone Jarrick. I don't wanna involve myself in a relationship when my heart is not yet mending." Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakahiga sa kama ko at pumalakpak ng malakas. Natawa na lang ako sa kabaliwan ng taong 'to.
I looked at him seriously kaya natigil siya sa kabaliwan.
"Hey! Why are you looking at me like that?" He covered his chest with his arms like I'll do something with him.
"Do you wanna be my boyfriend?" Biro lang yung tanong ko pero ginawa kong seryoso ang aking tono at mukha. Namutla naman siya at natigilan.
"Ew no! Di tayo talo!" He shrieked and covered himself with my blanket.
Yes. This basketball player from the Philippine Team is a gay. Ako lang daw ang nakakaalam sa buong pagkatao niya. Even his close friends doesn't know about this. He is afraid to be judged and he is afraid of his governor father.
Who would've thought that he's gay? Nilalandi landi pa nga ako nito dati. Pagpapanggap lang pala iyon.
I also can't believe it at first. I mean..he is so amazing in basketball and he looks so hot whenever he plays. Pero sabi niya, ginawa niya lang daw na facade ang pagiging basketball player niya na kalaunan ay nagustuhan niya na rin. And he loves to watch his teammates body secretly whenever they are in the locker room. Being a basketball player is a blessing for him.
