Chapter 11
The next days were a blur to me. Hindi ako sumasama kapag gustong lumabas nina mommy at Manuella. I know they are curious about what's happening to me because lately, I am very much silent at lagi pang mugto ang mata. They didn't just dare to ask me because they know that I need space.
Meanwhile, Jairus keeps on texting me as if nothing happened.
Jairus:
Are you free? Can I call?
Me:
No. I am doing something.
Jairus:
What is it?
Hindi ko na siya nireplyan. Akala siguro niya hindi ko alam ang kalokohang pinaggagagawa niya. I am so down these past few days that I think I became ugly. I thought vacations would be about unwinding and relaxing but mine's the opposite.
Jairus:
Are you awake?
It is already 9 PM here and in the Philippines is 3 AM. He is still awake.
Me:
Yes.
Jairus:
Can I call now?
Me:
I'm sorry. I am so sleepy.
Jairus:
Okay then. Goodnight baby.
Ilan kaming baby mo?
His goodnight is suppose to be making me happy but here I am, crying on my bed.
As much as I want to confront him about Grethel, I think this matter should be talked about personally.
Dumagdag pa ang nakita kong pictures at articles sa internet sa kalungkutan ko. It is Jairus with someone named Janette Martinez. People are saying that they look so good together. A businessman and a businesswoman. What an eyesore!
Heto na nga bang sinasabi ko. Marami akong karibal kay Jairus tapos ang iba ay aggressive pa kagaya ng secretary niya.
Saturday. Our last day here in Spain. I decided to go to Park Güell. Hindi pa ako kailanman lumabas ng mansyon simula nung dumating kami dito.
Pagbaba ko, nasa living room silang lahat at nakatuon ang paningin sa akin. They are giving me worried looks and I just smiled at them. I know they want to know what happened to me but I appreciate that they gave me space until I am ready to open up. But now's not the right time.
"I am going to the Park."
"Okay. Do you want us to join you? Call the driver honey." Hindi mapakali si mommy.
"No. I'm fine. Don't worry guys. I'll just hail a cab." Halos sabay silang bumuntong-hina na nagpatawa sa akin.
When they saw me laughing, they smiled. Parang napanatag ang loob nila nang makitang nakatawa na ako.
Buong hapon akong palakad-lakad sa Park Güell at minsan ay nagpapakuha ng pictures sa ibang tao. I can't even smile at the pictures because of my heavy heart but the pictures still look good though.
Naghanap ako ng magandang pwesto para makita ang sunset but I got disappointed after seeing dark clouds. Sasabay pa ata ang panahon sa kalungkutan ko.
Ilang oras nang hindi nagtext si Jairus. I admit that I missed him. Alam ko ring hindi ko sinasagot ang mga tawag niya at tipid lang ang mga reply ko pero hindi ko maiwasang hanap-hanapin.
