Sad Dolan Twins Imagines

stargaze (E.D)

We both laid in the grass, the long leaves tickling our bare skins and the stars looking straight back at us. We were quiet. It was a comfortable silence as we let our thoughts cloud our heads instead. If we were ever able to hear our thoughts, it would sound like a busy day in New York.

There's so many things you learn about the space and galaxy. It makes you think a little bit. How could humans like us know what's going on up there when we barely know what's happening down here.

You just look up at the sky and there's so many stars you can never count. I remember when I was younger, I would watch curious George on the tv. And one episode was when George was counting the stars. But he realized that he couldn't see any stars in the city but could see them in the country.

A monkey tried counting stars. Kid shows always tried to sneak some informational stuff in their shows.

But let's be honest, we all tried doing the same. We're curious people. We try and figure out what goes on up there.

But we don't spend so much time trying to figure out what's happening with ourselves.

I turned to look at him, his focus mainly on the stars. He probably forgot I was laying next to him. But then he took in a deep breath, and blinked.

I looked back up, trying not to speak. But the more I looked up, the more I could feel the stars yelling at me. Not actually yelling, but just staring at me intently. Making me swallow my tears and speak up.

"I get it." I blurt. "You can fall in love. You can be happy. You can do anything. I can't force you to do anything."

I could feel his gaze on me. I moved my eyes to look at him, but looking away quickly, taking a deep breath to hold back the tears.

"But what you can't do, is lead someone on." The stars glare at me. "You can't get their hopes up. You can't try and pry yourself into their lives when they're getting better."

I heard the grass shuffle and felt his gaze shift away from me. He's paying attention. Keep talking.

"You also can't take them to a place with so much good memories, just to be left there one last time. Creating the good place to become a sad one. I don't want that." I say. "I love this place. You had no right to take me here just to talk about your little girlfriend that you shove down my throat every chance you get."

"Y/N, I don't shove it down your throat." He finally speaks. I scoff. "Shut up. Just shut up!"

I sit up, running my hands through the grass and slowly starting to grip the grass. I look straight ahead of me and look into the trees.

It's an open field. Like, a big open field. It's like the field they use in twilight. It's the field that is the best place to stargaze since to me, it looks like it holds the most stars.

"You can't try to ruin a perfectly healthy person by taking them to a place that they love, just for you to get closure." I admit. I hear the grass shuffle again, just to see in the corner of my eye him sitting up. I feel my chest clog up and my arms slowly loosen their grip. I became weak.

"Y/N I never meant to hurt you." He said. "I just want us to end things off good. Be friends."

I roll my eyes. I pick my hands up and run them through the my hair, gripping at my scalp. I look down in my knees and try not to scream or cry. My heart hurts.

I was fine. I was getting over him. I was getting better. Why does he think he can just come out of nowhere and act like nothing got better. I was getting better.

"Just go to her." I whisper. I don't bring my head up. I don't move. We sit there in silence, until he speaks up.

"Y/N, I'm sorry for what I did. But I want us to be friends again." I shake my head. I can't. "Ethan, don't."

"You're my best friend! I needed you and I still do." He says. I shake my head once again. But he doesn't stop. "So maybe dating wasn't the right idea. But come on! That doesn't mean we still can't be friends!"

"You don't get it do you?" I raise my head up and stare at him in the eyes. He shifts a little from my gaze, but continues. "Don't let a label ruin our friendship."

I scoff. "You don't get it! And you probably never will." I yell. He rolls his eyes. "What don't I get? It was my relationship too."

"You don't get that one of us actually fell in love!" I yelled. His face softens, but it's my turn to speak. "You cannot come to me, and tell me how we had something special and apologize. When you're sitting right next to me, admitting that what we had was nothing to you."

His mouth is open a little to speak, but he doesn't. He lets me talk. He just stared at me and listens.

"I fell in love with you Ethan! And I would never go back to change it! But you told me that you loved me. That I was yours." Tears escape. I get up on my knees, and scoot closer to him. "You lied to me."

As I move closer to him, I shove him. He doesn't move too much as he is bigger than me. But I still do it.

"I was getting better. I didn't need you. I never needed you." Tears angrily slipped down my face. My heart broke down the middle as my arms started shaking.

"Go to her E. You are in love with her. You chose her over me!" I cried. By now, he stayed still staring at me, guilt in his eyes as his eyes teared up. But he wasn't going to cry. I knew he wasn't.

"Go! Get out of my face!" I screamed. He looked away to the ground for a second, then looking back at me. Tears streamed down my face making it sticky, and my throat hurt.

He slowly grabbed his stuff, and got up. He didn't turn around to wave or say something. He just walked towards the trees, the way we came here.

I watched him walk. I watched him walk away from me as he carried my heart with him.

He chose her.

He wanted her.

He never wanted me.

I laid my back down in the grass, feeling the little prickles touch my back. I stared back up at the stars.

Tears continued to stream down on the sides of my face. My chest hurt. But the sky still looked as beautiful as it always was.

But then I saw a shiny, long thing pass through the sky.

My mouth curved up, as my body relaxed.

A shooting star.