Sad Dolan Twins Imagines

Lonely again (2)

As I was cleaning me and Ethan's closet. I find a box that reads 'Grayson'. I take it out and open it up. I see pictures of him, his family, friends, and me.

I look through them as a certain one catches my attention. Me, Grayson, and our child. She died a few days after the birth. Her name was Julie. She died due to complications and when Grayson found out, he was heartbroken. He barely talked to anyone and blocked everyone out. Including me.

Until a few months later he killed himself. I can't help but blame me for his death. I never helped him when he needed me. I tried acting like everything was going to be fine. But it never did. I cried so much. It looked to him that I never cared for the baby. I'm such a fucking idiot. His death killed me and I didn't know what to do anymore. Or feel anymore.

Ethan came in and helped me through all of it. But, I still blame myself. I hold the picture up to my heart. I start sobbing and I see Grayson come into the room.

"Mommy? What's wrong?" He asks. He runs out of the room and runs into the hall and shouts, "Daddy! Come up here! Something happened to mommy!"

I hear running come up the stairs and Ethan comes into the room. "Oh my god." Ethan says and runs over to me and hugs me. I start sobbing uncontrollably.

"Shhhh. What's wrong." He asks calmly. "Its my fault he's gone! It's all my fault!" I yell and I can hear him start crying. "Its not your fault. It's no ones fault. You didn't know this was going to happen." He strokes my back, trying to calm me down. I start to scream. He strokes me a little bit and I cry into his chest.

"He's not gone. He's still with us and he wants us to be happy. Please, don't blame yourself on this." Ethan says kissing the top of my head. I calm down a little and I feel 2 more arms wrap around me. I look up and see him. Grayson. He looks at me and gives me a warm smile. He kisses my forehead and whispers in my hear, "Don't blame yourself. I'm always here for you no matter what. I'll love you and forever my queen." He says and disappears into mist.

I've finally calm down and Grayson comes into the room.

"Are you okay mommy?" He asks and gives me a smile. "Mommy's fine." He gives me a hug. This kid.

"Good. I love you mommy." He says "I love you to my prince." I say and kiss his cheek and he giggles. He runs out of the room into his room. I walk to Ethan and give him a hug.

"Thank you my king. For helping me with anything." I say and give him a peck on the lips. "Anything for my queen. I'm always here for you." He says.

Even though Grayson's gone. He's still with me. Until I take my last breath and see him again, I love you forever and always,

Grayson Bailey Dolan.

HEY GUYS!
So, I was wondering if you'd like to have Lonely again it's own book. I've planned this book for so long that I wanted to make a sneak peek. But, the real one might be an Ethan one😏. The tittle is actually inspired by the song "Lonely again" by gnash.
I hope to see you guys later
PEACE✌🏻💜