Toxic Duality (Sope/NamGi) 🔞

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It was difficult for Yoongi to untangle his thoughts about what he wanted as he and Namjoon sat together on the couch. Yoongi was simply watching Namjoon play video games, not wanting to play any himself. His thoughts were too distracting for him to concentrate on other things. What was he thinking about? Well, he was thinking about Namjoon and his desire to have sex with him. Was it too soon for him to think about such a thing? Maybe. Maybe not.

Yoongi wanted it. He was conflicted though because he couldn't figure out if he wanted it because he wanted Namjoon or because he wanted to regain control over his own body. Maybe it was a bit of both. He did find Namjoon to be super sweet and incredibly attractive. He also wanted to be able to make his own sexual decisions, not always be forced into acts he didn't want. He wondered if this was normal.

Was it okay for him to want sex after all the things Hoseok had done to him? Yoongi trusted Namjoon to never intentionally hurt him, so he thought this would be okay. Even with his broken arm, he found himself thinking it would be okay to engage in sexual activity with the taller man."Namjoon." he spoke to grab his attention.

"Yeah?" Namjoon didn't look away from his game, but he was listening. He didn't need to concentrate too much on the game right now. It was an adventure game, and he was just exploring at the moment.

Yoongi scooted closer to Namjoon and placed a hand onto his thigh, right above his knee."Will you kiss me?" He figured it was best to be a little bold and not dance verbal circles around what he wanted.

Pausing his game, Namjoon looked at the hand on his thigh then lifted his gaze to Yoongi's face."Uh, yeah, s-sure." Wow, Namjoon was awkward sometimes. Slowly leaning in, he pressed his lips to Yoongi's for a sweet peck.

That wasn't what Yoongi wanted though."Namjoon, please. More." Pushing himself up just a bit, Yoongi connected their lips again, pleased when Namjoon accepted.

Namjoon really loved Yoongi's lips. Sure, they were thin and not juicy as anyone would describe their dream lover's lips, but to Namjoon, they were perfect. As their lips started to mesh gently, he felt Yoongi's hand move away from his knee and find its way to his chest. With the music from his game no longer registering in his mind, Namjoon felt like he was losing himself in this kiss.

Yoongi wasn't very experienced in kissing. Kisses from Hoseok were never like this. Lip-locking with Namjoon was extremely different from the harsh mouth smashing and lip biting he always received from his abuser. Yoongi couldn't get enough of it. He wanted more. This tenderness awoke a craving within him. He just wanted love. He wanted tender care and gentleness. He wanted to decide who was allowed to touch him. And he decided that Namjoon was allowed.

It was like sinking into a pool of ecstasy, losing himself as soon as tongues got involved. Namjoon was no match to resist, was he? The desire in the air around them was almost palpable. He didn't even realize that Yoongi was shifting his position until the smaller guy was straddling his hips. Namjoon's hands instinctively made themselves familiar with Yoongi's waist.

Soon, their lips were separated, and Yoongi swooped down to begin pressing kisses to Namjoon's neck."Please..." he breathlessly pleaded between kisses."Please, Namjoon..."

Slipping his hands around to Yoongi's backside, Namjoon was extremely tempted. His fingers began kneading what was definitely the plumpest part of Yoongi. He wanted it. They both did. Was it right though? Using his hands on Yoongi's backside to pull him closer, Namjoon could feel that they were both aroused."Hyung, I..." He didn't know if they should do this.

"Namjoon, please..." Yoongi begged again, his left hand sensually rubbing Namjoon's chest."I want you...I need you..."

"God, Yoongi-hyung, I want you too." Namjoon's will power was cracking."Hold on to me." As soon as Yoongi's left arm hooked itself around the back of his neck, Namjoon grabbed Yoongi's thighs and stood from the couch. It was hard to focus on walking to the bedroom as he could feel fresh kisses being planted on his neck. Once in the bedroom, he moved a hand to Yoongi's butt to hold him as his other hand opened the third drawer of his dresser, pulling out a small bottle of lube and a condom.