Poprocks and coke

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙮-𝙛𝙞𝙫𝙚

"Thanks Billie,"

"And remember- let-"

"-Let her know I'm not angry with what ever she picks- even if I am. I know I know," I laughed slightly.

He rolled his eyes playfully. "Just saying,"

"Well- wish me luck,"

"Good luck Birdie," He told me, before he leant over and flicked my nose.

I twitched slightly, before laughing it off as I opened the car door to the coldness outside.

I got out and waved goodbye before walking back up to my house, opening the door I took one last look at Billie who was still sat outside my house before I closed it.

He always waited until I got inside to drive away.

"Is that you Blaze?" I heard my mom shout from up the stairs.

"Just me,"

I walked into the living room, placing myself on the sofa and watching what ever shit was already on television.

Obviously no one was watching it before, so it was some random program that I couldn't tell what was happening.

I tried to get the grips of the show, before the living room door opened and my mom walked in. She gave me an awkward smile, the kind of smile that wasn't real but was only testing if I would give her one back. It was so she could see if I was still angry, which I wasn't, so I smiled back before looking over at the screen of the telly.

"What you watching?" She asked, sitting on the other end of the sofa.

"I'm not sure- but I think she's in trouble," I told her, pointing to a blonde character who was currently on screen.

"Why's that?"

"I'm not quite sure- she must've done something bad because everyone else doesn't seem to like her,"

My mom nodded. "Ah, I see,"

We went quiet, the volume of the television was low making things more awkward.

The room was dark, curtains shut and lights turned off. The only light in the room was from the big screen in front of us. I wanted to move positions on the couch to a more comfortable one, but for some reason I was scared to move.

"Hey mom?"

"Yeah?" She looked away from the tv and met my eyes. There was a nervous glimmer in her eye I caught, but it didn't stay for long. Probably just a millisecond, if not that shorter.

"I'm... I'm sorry about what I said earlier on. About not wanting you here. That wasn't true- I was being cruel. I want you here, I want to stay here and I want to be here with you. But I want you to be happy with David,"

"What do you mean honey?"

"I think I'm gonna stay home. I don't think Rome is for people like me, after all I'll end up being a misery. I don't want to go somewhere that'll make me miserable, and I don't want you feeling like you have to stay somewhere that might make you feel the same. You can go to Rome if you want to go to Rome. With David. But I didn't mean what I said- and I would love you here. But I would love you equally either way,"

She took a moment. I think she was taking it in what I had said? "I wouldn't want to leave you permanently Blazey,"

"But I want you to be happy mom,"

"I am happy,"

"I know how bad you want to go there. And I know how bad you like David. And I know how much of a pain in the ass I can be and-"