Biker roots

Chapter 7 - Goodbyes

Two weeks fly by and I am finally graduated. I haven't spoken or seen Felix at all. I do miss him an awful lot, but I need time to figure out how I feel and so far he has respected that. Tomorrow I leave to find the place where I was born. I hope I'll find some answers there. 

As I walk out of school for the last time I bump into someone. "Hi Fox," Felix says. "Hi Felix." I respond while taking my distance. "Congrats." "Congratulations, to you too." "Well you know if it wasn't for you I probably had failed again." He responds. I smile at him. 

"I know you wanted some space, but we need to talk. I miss spending time with you. And we leave for our vacation in a week." I look at him surprised. "Our vacation?" "Yeah, you know we talked about this a lot. How awesome it would be if we just took some time with the two of us and see where the road would take us." I stare at him, he can't be serious. "Felix, I think I can't come with you." "No Fox, don't I'll pick you up. Monday at eight in the morning." Felix says. Before I can answer he turns around and walks away.

I eat dinner with my family and we talk until late in the evening, I hug my mom and dad tight and go to bed. Everything is packed for my trip tomorrow. I can't wait to leave this place and see where I come from. But at the same time I have a weird anxious feeling in my stomach. What if my mother is right and there is no room for me in his life? Or worse what if he doesn't want to meet me at all. I sigh and hop on my bed and then there is Felix. I fiddle with my phone knowing, I need to let Felix know something. It's the decent thing to do. He needs to know that I'll be gone for some time. I decide to think about it, and so I toss and turn all night.

Saying goodbye is hard, even though it's only for a while. I am going to miss my parents. Mom triple checked everything I have packed, she made me lunch and coffee for on the road. She even looked up all the places where fuel is cheapest along the road. Dad has taken my car towards the car repair shop to make sure everything was in order for my trip. 

I hug them both tight and look at them. "Be careful honey." Mom says. "If you are in any trouble, you know who to call? You have all the numbers? Your phone is charged?" Dad asks. "Are you sure that we don't need to come with you? Or maybe you should take Felix." He says. "Dad, relax. I'll be fine. I'll text and call a lot, I won't go out alone at night. And I'll be really careful." He hugs me tight and places a kiss on top of my head. "I love you pumpkin." "Love you too dad."

I sit in my old dark green defender and look at the road. Don't be a chicken Alex, send him a message. 'Felix, I am leaving for a while, need to figure a couple of things out.' My fingers glide over my phone and before I can change my mind I press send. I don't want to see his response so, I start my car and hit the road.