Aizawa's Cat (Old)

Chapter 16

When Izuku saw Katsuki and Shoto the next morning he ran to them, hesitating for a moment, before throwing himself into Shoto's arms.
"Bad night?"
Kirishima laughed as he rubbed the back of his head,
"Don't worry Bakubro, he showed up but I kept him safe!" He ended his little speech with a thumbs up and shining smile.

Katsuki tched in amusement before ruffling Izuku's wild green locks,
"C'mon nerd, time to go."
Izuku didn't speak, moving to hold both of their hands as they walked. His head was down so he missed the concerned looks shared by the two taller boys, katsuki cocking an eyebrow and nodding at the greenette. Shoto's left eyebrow rose as his head tilted, falling back down when the blonde silently snarled at him. The dual haired boy sighed and nodded.
"Izu-kun, you are very quiet this morning, is everything ok?"

Izuku's head shot up, startled,
"Y-yeah I-I'm ok, r-really it's n-nothing."
He really hoped they would drop it even though it was obvious he was lying because he felt bad, how would they react if he showed his concern for Kirishima? He hated that Kiri had to watch over him when he probably had better things to do.

To his relief, they seemed to drop it, continuing on to their class. He found it so hard to concentrate,

*You are so useless, having to rely on others. You deserve to be punished especially now you are being such a burden*

Izuku tried to ignore Batsu but he was being worn down, everything he said was true. He had caused Kirishima so much trouble, not to mention Katsuki and Shoto. He wondered what they saw in him.

*They pity you! Poor, broken Izuku.*

His full body flinch didn't go unnoticed, three people watched him with worried gazes.

*You are just wasting their time, they don't care about you! You should punish yourself for even thinking you deserve them!*

He felt like crying, again.
'Batsu was right, Katsuki and Shoto are out of my league.' His shoulders slumped, gaze on the desk in front of him. His nose tingled as tears rushed to wet his eyes, his hands gripped together tightly under the table. He felt it when it started, Batsu slowly slid into the forefront of his mind, cautious not to draw attention.

*Hush now, I will sort it out.*

He could only watch as his hands slowly unclenched and his right hand slid under his left sleeve.

He felt the pain of his fingers digging into the barely healed cuts, reopening them, but he couldn't make a sound.

*You deserve this.*

Batsu faded back into the depths of his mind leaving Izuku to sit there, staring into space, blood staining his finger tips.
He was so dazed, he didn't hear the class leave, lessons over and lunch break beginning. He didn't hear his boyfriends and teacher calling him either until he was roughly shaken out of the daze.

"Midoriya! Snap out of it!" His gaze focused on his worried looking teacher,
"A-Aizawa-Sensei? W-what-"
He looked around, Aizawa was crouched in front of him, Katsuki to his left, Shoto to his right.
"Hey, it's ok kid, you weren't responding for a while there, you ok?"

'No, no, no! I-I can't, they are all looking at me! W-what do I say? If I say no, they will be upset but if I say yes then they will know I'm lying! I-I can't deal with this! There's too many eyes on me! Look away! Stop staring! Please leave me alone! I feel like I'm falling apart!"

His breath started to become laboured as he panicked, there was a building pressure in his head, as well as Batsu battering against the invisible wall, screaming something.

'It's too much! To loud! Stop, stop stopstopstopstop!'

Suddenly Izuku slumped forwards, only to spring back up a moment later,
"I'm fine guys! Don't worry!" He smiled widely and put a thumbs up with his unbloodied hand.
"It's lunch, right? Let me just go to the bathroom then we can eat yeah?"
The greenette skipped out of the classroom, leaving three stunned males behind.
"The FUCK was that?"