dare [h. renjun]

-chapter forty five-

hi! just here to let you know that i may not be able to update for a few days since i still have to work on my overdue tasks:( and our exams are coming in 2 days<\3

get ready for your hearts btw ❤️

"i don't want you get hurt again, okay?"

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it's been 30 minutes since i have been sitting down at the coffee shop renjun told me to meet him at. i already shoved sungwon to go home after him insisting that he would stay until the person i'm waiting for comes.

i... don't want him to see the moment i'd meet renjun at this point. i don't know what kind of face i'd make if i see his face.

my head hung low as i observe myself playing with my fingers then fidgeting the hem of my skirt anxiously.

being a vulnerable person i am, i wanted to cry. i wanted to cry at what sungwon told me. i trust my friend and his words, but there's still a little piece of hope clinging on to me, thinking that what he had said isn't true. however, i don't want to jump to conclusions yet. that is why i am still waiting for renjun despite the fact that the sun had already disappeared, leaving the sky deep orange marmalade. any time now, the stars will emerge, overcoming the night sky already.

5:50 pm

is he really not coming?

damn it. just when i thought everything was completely intact, and was going my way. i thought... nothing would happen after the confession yesterday.

i just knew he was a complete jerk.

i calmed myself down by letting out a deep breath before contacting mark as the clock's long hand hits 12, indicating it's already 6 pm.

"hey~ what's up?"

"mark." my voice was void of any emotions.

"anything wrong?"

"i want to ask you something... and be completely honest with me."

i then heard a low chuckle from the other line. "you're making me nervous, (y/n). what is it?"

"is..." i paused for a second. i didn't know how to start to be honest."is it true?"

"is it true what?"

"that you..." i paused again, this time biting my lower lip as i tried not to tear up. i felt very betrayed by the person i considered as my friend.

"that you made a bet with renjun?"

the other line went silent, making me fidgety even more. my heart couldn't stop from beating like crazy.

a laughter then broke out from the short silence. "what bet? we always play with bets."

"stop fooling around, mark. i'm dead serious."

"..."

"i knew it. you made a bet with him, didn't you? for me to f*cking like him? are you guys happy now? that i'm head over heels for that jerk?" i was already on verge of tears. i couldn't contain myself anymore after bursting those words out.

"y/n..."

even he can not say anything. he didn't even try to deny it immediately. that just means what i'm saying is real. as much as i needed him to tell the truth, deep inside i wanted him to just lie and deny all of it.